So I did a little experiment with myself today. To start my first week back at tracking, I decided to eat, kind of like I have been in the last few weeks....How many daily points have I been consuming on average. Well, I comsumed a grand total of 58 points! Well, no shit I've gained weight! Eating like that for a few weeks will do that to a girl. Double Duh.
So the good news is I tracked today, I went to bootcamp and worked my arse off. I will track tomorrow, make better choices that are WW friendly, and go to spinning. And I will be nice to stupid jerks that try and steal my sunshiney spirit.
xoxo Gallant
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Caution: MAJOR BUMMER
So, I gained another 3.5 lbs. I have not been tracking, I have been eating my feelings, and feeling like crap about it.
I've been having a hard time the last month. Too much stress, depression, it's all been winning the race. I've still been working out, but apparently not enough to offset eating like an animal.
My Grandpa fell into a coma last week after suffering some serious illness caused by his dementia, in short, he's dying. That has been the cherry on top of the stress/depression cake. I always turn to food when I'm upset and feeling lonely and freaked out. Today I made an attempt to stop that cycle. I went to my first WW meeting in weeks, faced the ugly truth of the scale, and ate balanced and mindfully and went to cycling. Tomorrow I will start tracking again. I need NEED neeeeeed to remind myself that stuffing my face and getting fatter is just going to make me feel worse.
Tomorrow I will
TRACK WHAT I EAT
GO TO BOOTCAMP
BUY A CALENDAR TO SCHEDULE MY WORK OUTS, WW MEETINGS, CAKE ORDERS, ETC.
BE THANKFUL AND FILLED WITH LOVE FOR MYSELF
xoxo Gallant
I've been having a hard time the last month. Too much stress, depression, it's all been winning the race. I've still been working out, but apparently not enough to offset eating like an animal.
My Grandpa fell into a coma last week after suffering some serious illness caused by his dementia, in short, he's dying. That has been the cherry on top of the stress/depression cake. I always turn to food when I'm upset and feeling lonely and freaked out. Today I made an attempt to stop that cycle. I went to my first WW meeting in weeks, faced the ugly truth of the scale, and ate balanced and mindfully and went to cycling. Tomorrow I will start tracking again. I need NEED neeeeeed to remind myself that stuffing my face and getting fatter is just going to make me feel worse.
Tomorrow I will
TRACK WHAT I EAT
GO TO BOOTCAMP
BUY A CALENDAR TO SCHEDULE MY WORK OUTS, WW MEETINGS, CAKE ORDERS, ETC.
BE THANKFUL AND FILLED WITH LOVE FOR MYSELF
xoxo Gallant
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Blessed
Tonight I am feeling blessed. I feel so lucky to have a job (even though I don't like it) to pay my bills, to have a strong body that I can see new muscles coming out, to have the support of everyone I love, to have the best dog in the whole world.
I am still struggling with eating. Easter has turned into a 3 day event so far for me. I'm really hoping that I can get back to being mindful and healthy tomorrow. The good news is that I still haven't gained any weight. the bad news is that I still haven't lost any weight. I'm still at the grand total of 12 lbs. I really need to lose at least 60. I've got my fitness down, I just need to re group and be consistent with my WW. It's very hit and miss for me. Consistency is the key.
Tomorrow I will make smarter choices and will not go into maximum carb overload.
xoxo Gallant
I am still struggling with eating. Easter has turned into a 3 day event so far for me. I'm really hoping that I can get back to being mindful and healthy tomorrow. The good news is that I still haven't gained any weight. the bad news is that I still haven't lost any weight. I'm still at the grand total of 12 lbs. I really need to lose at least 60. I've got my fitness down, I just need to re group and be consistent with my WW. It's very hit and miss for me. Consistency is the key.
Tomorrow I will make smarter choices and will not go into maximum carb overload.
xoxo Gallant
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Get It Girl
Sooooo, I gained 1 pound. YEP. In the last 5 weeks of not weighing in, not really tracking, and stressing the F out, I ONLY gained a pound :)
I know, it seems weird to be okay/happy with that, but honestly, I had horrible visions of somehow gaining everything back and I didn't!!! This gives me hope that they're are some major changes happening in my behavior, that my less that perfect falling off the wagon, really ain't so bad. Last year, I would've gained it all back, in fact I've done it more times than I'd like to admit.
So today, is a new day, a day that will lead the way to better days to come, more weight loss to be had, and my goals being met. I'm really happy today!
I went for a 2.5 mile walk with my Jonesy, my favorite walking partner. He likes to hustle. I think it's the songs I make up about us and sing out loud to him while we're walking that really gets him moving ;)
I tracked everything today, had A LOT of points at lunch, but it's all good, because I'm tracking them, and I'm totally going to lose 2 lbs this week. Get It Girl!
Well back to baking for me, so many cupcakes, so little time...literally.
Tomorrow I will walk again, track everything, and bake my ass off!
Have a great night my lovely ladies! I love you all to bits!!!!
xoxo Gallant
I know, it seems weird to be okay/happy with that, but honestly, I had horrible visions of somehow gaining everything back and I didn't!!! This gives me hope that they're are some major changes happening in my behavior, that my less that perfect falling off the wagon, really ain't so bad. Last year, I would've gained it all back, in fact I've done it more times than I'd like to admit.
So today, is a new day, a day that will lead the way to better days to come, more weight loss to be had, and my goals being met. I'm really happy today!
I went for a 2.5 mile walk with my Jonesy, my favorite walking partner. He likes to hustle. I think it's the songs I make up about us and sing out loud to him while we're walking that really gets him moving ;)
I tracked everything today, had A LOT of points at lunch, but it's all good, because I'm tracking them, and I'm totally going to lose 2 lbs this week. Get It Girl!
Well back to baking for me, so many cupcakes, so little time...literally.
Tomorrow I will walk again, track everything, and bake my ass off!
Have a great night my lovely ladies! I love you all to bits!!!!
xoxo Gallant
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I miss you
I just accidentally erased my post. SON OF A BITCH.
A brief synopsis:
I miss you, my FT ladies. I miss giving myself the time I deserve to be thin and happy. I miss bootcamp (it has been off for two weeks, my instructors are on vacation.)
I am tired and busy. I am thankful for being busy with cake orders, lots and lots of cake orders, but on my only day off I haven been making at least 5-6 dozen cupcakes, and delivering them, and have turned to pizza and chips because I am tired. Not good.
TOMORROW
I will weigh in, and face the music. I have not weighed in for over a month. Be prepared for tears tomorrow
I will go to spinning and not be convinced that an hour away from cake making is going to ruin my schedule...who needs sleep anyway?
I will think only positive thoughts
I will blog about my results
I will track everything I eat, resurrecting my goal of being thin and fit.
Thank you ladies, for still reading this, still being on my team, and being the best support a girl could ask for.
xoxo Gallant
A brief synopsis:
I miss you, my FT ladies. I miss giving myself the time I deserve to be thin and happy. I miss bootcamp (it has been off for two weeks, my instructors are on vacation.)
I am tired and busy. I am thankful for being busy with cake orders, lots and lots of cake orders, but on my only day off I haven been making at least 5-6 dozen cupcakes, and delivering them, and have turned to pizza and chips because I am tired. Not good.
TOMORROW
I will weigh in, and face the music. I have not weighed in for over a month. Be prepared for tears tomorrow
I will go to spinning and not be convinced that an hour away from cake making is going to ruin my schedule...who needs sleep anyway?
I will think only positive thoughts
I will blog about my results
I will track everything I eat, resurrecting my goal of being thin and fit.
Thank you ladies, for still reading this, still being on my team, and being the best support a girl could ask for.
xoxo Gallant
Monday, April 4, 2011
RE COMMITTING
Hey Ya'll!
Here I am, typing away in my hotel room in Dirty Jersey. Right across the highway from the beautiful Newark Airport. YES, I travel in style to the most exciting places!
I'm at a two day training at our Elizabeth NJ store, so far so good. I've even made good choices with my food so far! Last night I got in late and was starving, I ordered a salad with sliced apples and walnuts from the bistro in the lobby. It was pretty lame, but I was happy I made the best choice possible. I also brough a lot of snacks with me, granola bars, almonds, crackers...AND had fruit instead of a bagel for breakfast...first time ever!! Dinner might be a bit of a challenge today, by the looks of it, Ruby Tuesday's is going to be the destination, yuck!!
The next two weeks are going to be a bit challenging for me. My bootcamp is on hiatius for 2 weeks,, which means I'm on my own. I've got to come up with a game plan on what to do with my fitness for the next few Monday's and Wednesday's. I can't get caught in a slump! On the bright side I can return to the Wednesday night WW meetings that I like the best. However, I need to check out the Friday one and see if it's something I'd be into. So far I hate the Saturday one, it's flippin lame! I haven't been to a weigh in in 3 weeks. THIS IS NOT OKAY. I could bore everyone with the reasons why, but really, there is NO excuse. I need to get back on the program 100%, no excuses. I am recommiting to the meetings and weigh ins starting on Wednesday. The good news is that all though i haven't been the best WW member of late, I have always kept mindful, not being perfect, but not falling off the deep end and eating an entire cake or pizza. I haven't said "Fuck It" yet.
After my first 4 weeks of bootcamp though, I got my mesurments done, and I lost 1 inch in my waist, 1 in my hips, and .5 in my arms...so I'm still playing the "slow and steady wins the race" role! I am going to step it up though, because I want to have lost an additional 40lbs by the end of August. This will be a challenge, but I am committed and ready to so this. I will be one hot bitch! The grand total will be 52 lbs, about 70% or so to my year end goal.
I CAN MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
I WILL MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
IT IS HAPPENING!!!!
My reflections on the last few months; I have found who I am, what I want, and what I really need to do to achieve it. I have a clear goal, and it is something that I have complete control over. My mind has control over my eating, not my emotions.
I might not blog tomorrow, depending on what time I get home. But please know, that if I am not around for a day or two, I am always cheering for you, always keeping up with you, and carrying all of your amazing strength and support with me. I love you all!!
xoxo - Gallant
Here I am, typing away in my hotel room in Dirty Jersey. Right across the highway from the beautiful Newark Airport. YES, I travel in style to the most exciting places!
I'm at a two day training at our Elizabeth NJ store, so far so good. I've even made good choices with my food so far! Last night I got in late and was starving, I ordered a salad with sliced apples and walnuts from the bistro in the lobby. It was pretty lame, but I was happy I made the best choice possible. I also brough a lot of snacks with me, granola bars, almonds, crackers...AND had fruit instead of a bagel for breakfast...first time ever!! Dinner might be a bit of a challenge today, by the looks of it, Ruby Tuesday's is going to be the destination, yuck!!
The next two weeks are going to be a bit challenging for me. My bootcamp is on hiatius for 2 weeks,, which means I'm on my own. I've got to come up with a game plan on what to do with my fitness for the next few Monday's and Wednesday's. I can't get caught in a slump! On the bright side I can return to the Wednesday night WW meetings that I like the best. However, I need to check out the Friday one and see if it's something I'd be into. So far I hate the Saturday one, it's flippin lame! I haven't been to a weigh in in 3 weeks. THIS IS NOT OKAY. I could bore everyone with the reasons why, but really, there is NO excuse. I need to get back on the program 100%, no excuses. I am recommiting to the meetings and weigh ins starting on Wednesday. The good news is that all though i haven't been the best WW member of late, I have always kept mindful, not being perfect, but not falling off the deep end and eating an entire cake or pizza. I haven't said "Fuck It" yet.
After my first 4 weeks of bootcamp though, I got my mesurments done, and I lost 1 inch in my waist, 1 in my hips, and .5 in my arms...so I'm still playing the "slow and steady wins the race" role! I am going to step it up though, because I want to have lost an additional 40lbs by the end of August. This will be a challenge, but I am committed and ready to so this. I will be one hot bitch! The grand total will be 52 lbs, about 70% or so to my year end goal.
I CAN MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
I WILL MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
IT IS HAPPENING!!!!
My reflections on the last few months; I have found who I am, what I want, and what I really need to do to achieve it. I have a clear goal, and it is something that I have complete control over. My mind has control over my eating, not my emotions.
I might not blog tomorrow, depending on what time I get home. But please know, that if I am not around for a day or two, I am always cheering for you, always keeping up with you, and carrying all of your amazing strength and support with me. I love you all!!
xoxo - Gallant
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Breathing Deeply
I'm tired. I am having a pretty good day as far as eating, tracking and exercising everything is all good. I had a crap day at work. Some people are still 17 year old mean girls, even when they're pushing 60. I need to focus on having a new career. I want to open my own business but I am terrified of failing, of being overwhelmed and not being able to maintain my sanity. I'd settle for something new, in general, that didn't involve working with a bunch of jerks. Not everyone is a jerk, but some days I let the jerks rule. Deep Cleansing Breaths. It's been the mantra and activity of the day.
I am proud that through dealing with a crap day, rude people, and still hurting and feeling tired, I did not sabotage myself. I consider this a VICTORY!
VIVA LA GALLANT!
THANKFULS
The GREAT people I work with. They are so much cooler than the crap ones
My friendship with fitness, it's pretty strong
My ability to fake bravery and strength, when I'm not feeling it, but can still manage to show it on the outside
Being resilient: Go ahead, be an asshole, it just makes my light shine brighter!
Pierogie's. CARB ON CARB ACTION. Heavenly
Until tomorrow, I wish all of you peace, love, comfort and health.
xoxo Gallant
I am proud that through dealing with a crap day, rude people, and still hurting and feeling tired, I did not sabotage myself. I consider this a VICTORY!
VIVA LA GALLANT!
THANKFULS
The GREAT people I work with. They are so much cooler than the crap ones
My friendship with fitness, it's pretty strong
My ability to fake bravery and strength, when I'm not feeling it, but can still manage to show it on the outside
Being resilient: Go ahead, be an asshole, it just makes my light shine brighter!
Pierogie's. CARB ON CARB ACTION. Heavenly
Until tomorrow, I wish all of you peace, love, comfort and health.
xoxo Gallant
Monday, March 28, 2011
Vitamin D
I can't believe it's been 5 days since I last blogged! I promised myself to get back on track starting today, and so far I'm doing a pretty good job of it!
A few things I've realized work against me if I don't make sure they happen...
Making my lunch and breakfast everyday. If I rely on whatever is availiable and at hand, I never really make great choices, and I still have major issues with portion control. And you know what kills me about those bad choices? 99% of time, they're really not worth it. Certain things are worth it, good quality delicious food that I love, well at least I'm enjoying on the way down...But some lame ass half dried bagel from work worth 13 points?! SO not worth it.
I have not been to a meeting in 3 weeks, first it was vacation, then I was busy with a cake order, then I was on my period, excuses excuses. Who am I hurting when I avoid these things?? MYSELF. And I decided that I wasn't going to to that this year. I PROMISED myself that I wouldn't do that anymore.
So here I go, back to being awesome.
I got a diagnosis finally today with all my joint pain, thank God, especially today, has been really hard. My body is really hurting bad today. SO, I have a vitamin D deficiency, which causes joint pain and depression. So I am hopeful that I'll be feeling better all around soon enough. My doctor told me a normal, but absolute lowest level your vitamin D should be at is a 30. Mine is at a 9 !!! No wonder I feel so awful! So I have a script for mega vitamin, that I'll be taking for 2 months. I want a trip to the bahama's, dr's orders, but my bank account says otherwise.
On a positive note, I have pushed through the pain and have not missed a workout yet. I have also started tracking again. Yay me!
That's all for tonight, I'm going to ice my achy joints, and have sweet dreams of feeling better soon.
LOVE LOVE LOVE you ladies!
xoxo - Gallant
A few things I've realized work against me if I don't make sure they happen...
Making my lunch and breakfast everyday. If I rely on whatever is availiable and at hand, I never really make great choices, and I still have major issues with portion control. And you know what kills me about those bad choices? 99% of time, they're really not worth it. Certain things are worth it, good quality delicious food that I love, well at least I'm enjoying on the way down...But some lame ass half dried bagel from work worth 13 points?! SO not worth it.
I have not been to a meeting in 3 weeks, first it was vacation, then I was busy with a cake order, then I was on my period, excuses excuses. Who am I hurting when I avoid these things?? MYSELF. And I decided that I wasn't going to to that this year. I PROMISED myself that I wouldn't do that anymore.
So here I go, back to being awesome.
I got a diagnosis finally today with all my joint pain, thank God, especially today, has been really hard. My body is really hurting bad today. SO, I have a vitamin D deficiency, which causes joint pain and depression. So I am hopeful that I'll be feeling better all around soon enough. My doctor told me a normal, but absolute lowest level your vitamin D should be at is a 30. Mine is at a 9 !!! No wonder I feel so awful! So I have a script for mega vitamin, that I'll be taking for 2 months. I want a trip to the bahama's, dr's orders, but my bank account says otherwise.
On a positive note, I have pushed through the pain and have not missed a workout yet. I have also started tracking again. Yay me!
That's all for tonight, I'm going to ice my achy joints, and have sweet dreams of feeling better soon.
LOVE LOVE LOVE you ladies!
xoxo - Gallant
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Dang it!
So today my doctor called me back with my test results, and I didn't get the call in time, by the time I did call back, the office was closed!!! DANG IT! Tomorrow I'll find out. I'm really hoping it's a vitamin deficiency.
Tonight, I went to bootcamp, and I was really difficult. I am having a lot of pain, but I got through it with modifying almost all of it. I hate to modify. I want to do it all.
I did good with my eating, I stayed mindful. Really, this year is about learning why I eat, why I eat what I eat, putting myself first, and BEING MINDFUL.
Tomorrow, will be a great day. Because I will make it great.
Nighty Night Ladies, I am so thankful for all of you, for your positive words, your love, your inspiration by just being your wonderful selves!
THANKFULS
Pulling through a workout, even though I wanted to give up, multiple times
My fitness coach, for always believing in me
My doggie Jones, even though he's being a wild animal tonight. Sometimes I feel like I'm living with a 6 month old polar bear.
YOU, yes, YOU!!!
Modern Family, makes me laugh so hard
xoxo - Gallant
Tonight, I went to bootcamp, and I was really difficult. I am having a lot of pain, but I got through it with modifying almost all of it. I hate to modify. I want to do it all.
I did good with my eating, I stayed mindful. Really, this year is about learning why I eat, why I eat what I eat, putting myself first, and BEING MINDFUL.
Tomorrow, will be a great day. Because I will make it great.
Nighty Night Ladies, I am so thankful for all of you, for your positive words, your love, your inspiration by just being your wonderful selves!
THANKFULS
Pulling through a workout, even though I wanted to give up, multiple times
My fitness coach, for always believing in me
My doggie Jones, even though he's being a wild animal tonight. Sometimes I feel like I'm living with a 6 month old polar bear.
YOU, yes, YOU!!!
Modern Family, makes me laugh so hard
xoxo - Gallant
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
not awful, not great
Hello!
So, I've been having a hard week. I've been tracking what I am eating, and I have been excerising, but my eating hasn't been great. Not awful, but NOT great. I've been having a lot of joint pain this week, I went to the Dr yesterday and had some blood work done, hopefully that'll explain these pains. My hands are cramping as I type. So this will be short and sweet.
I am thankful that I am still mindful, and haven't given up on myself, which I normally would have done at this point.
I will have a better week, starting tomorrow.
I love you ladies, so very much!!
xoxo
Gallant
So, I've been having a hard week. I've been tracking what I am eating, and I have been excerising, but my eating hasn't been great. Not awful, but NOT great. I've been having a lot of joint pain this week, I went to the Dr yesterday and had some blood work done, hopefully that'll explain these pains. My hands are cramping as I type. So this will be short and sweet.
I am thankful that I am still mindful, and haven't given up on myself, which I normally would have done at this point.
I will have a better week, starting tomorrow.
I love you ladies, so very much!!
xoxo
Gallant
Thursday, March 17, 2011
RELIEF
So I missed bootcamp last night because I was at a stupid meeting at work that ran so late, I couldn't make it : / LAME!
I did go to spinning tonight, and I worked hard. My body has been really aching lately. Mostly in my joints and feet which has me a little worried. I'm thinking I should make an appointment with my doctor. I want to say it was my old shoes, but wrists and hands have been in a lot of pain too...DOUBLE LAME!
On to the best news EVER, the lead up is something I haven't mentioned all week because I was afraid if I said something, I'd jinx it or something...
My nephew who is surviving cancer, just recently started his recovery process. He went through a year of brutal Chemo and Radiation, a bone marrow transplant, operations to remove tumors, and anti-body treatments. (he had nueroblastoma, a form of bone marrow cancer) This little man, all of 7 years old, has been through the ringer. Anyway, last Friday he was showing symptoms that the cancer had returned. Primarily, some lesions on his legs, and he was limping. Which were the first signs before he was diagnosed. We were praying, hoping, wishing, praying, praying, praying, that his test results would come up negative...AND THEY DID! After his results came back, of course my sister in law was relieved to the point of some serious emotional tears, and that's when my niece decided she had a confession to make...
My nephew made her promise not to tell mom...They were outside playing, rough housing around with the dog, the dog had a big stick and accidentally close-lined my nephew. He was so afraid to be in trouble, and more importantly to have his bff (the dog) get in trouble, he made his sister promise not to tell...so his limping and leg injuries, were caused by being a kid, not cancer.
OH MY LORD!! I feel like a weight has lifted off of me and I can let go of some massive stress I was carrying around. And can't stop getting weepy every five minutes today.
anyway, that's all for me tonight, I tried to focus on myself through fitness this week, because it keeps me sane, but food, well, it's still the thing I turn to when I'm sad. I will conquer this. I WILL.
xoxo Ladies. Love you all to bits!
-Gallant
I did go to spinning tonight, and I worked hard. My body has been really aching lately. Mostly in my joints and feet which has me a little worried. I'm thinking I should make an appointment with my doctor. I want to say it was my old shoes, but wrists and hands have been in a lot of pain too...DOUBLE LAME!
On to the best news EVER, the lead up is something I haven't mentioned all week because I was afraid if I said something, I'd jinx it or something...
My nephew who is surviving cancer, just recently started his recovery process. He went through a year of brutal Chemo and Radiation, a bone marrow transplant, operations to remove tumors, and anti-body treatments. (he had nueroblastoma, a form of bone marrow cancer) This little man, all of 7 years old, has been through the ringer. Anyway, last Friday he was showing symptoms that the cancer had returned. Primarily, some lesions on his legs, and he was limping. Which were the first signs before he was diagnosed. We were praying, hoping, wishing, praying, praying, praying, that his test results would come up negative...AND THEY DID! After his results came back, of course my sister in law was relieved to the point of some serious emotional tears, and that's when my niece decided she had a confession to make...
My nephew made her promise not to tell mom...They were outside playing, rough housing around with the dog, the dog had a big stick and accidentally close-lined my nephew. He was so afraid to be in trouble, and more importantly to have his bff (the dog) get in trouble, he made his sister promise not to tell...so his limping and leg injuries, were caused by being a kid, not cancer.
OH MY LORD!! I feel like a weight has lifted off of me and I can let go of some massive stress I was carrying around. And can't stop getting weepy every five minutes today.
anyway, that's all for me tonight, I tried to focus on myself through fitness this week, because it keeps me sane, but food, well, it's still the thing I turn to when I'm sad. I will conquer this. I WILL.
xoxo Ladies. Love you all to bits!
-Gallant
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
There is NO other option
My legs are KILLING me today. Bootcamp, followed by spinning...for goodness sakes, I'm surprised they haven't fallen off this week. My feet have been really bothering me, they've been cramping a lot while I exercise. I'm hoping it's because my shoes were beat up so I went out and bought some new ones tonight. I HATE fitness shoes. Why are they all so stupid looking? I don't wear silver/neon ANYTHING, why is it so hard to find anything that doesn't look like Transformer action figures for your feet? Booooo. I found a pair that didn't make me gag, and feel good on, tomorrow is bootcamp again, so we shall see....
I've been tracking again, for the last two days. I'm not really feeling it, but I also don't feel like I have another option, besides giving up, staying the same size, or worse, getting fatter.
I think the hardest part is the realization that this is going to be a LONG process. That I will not always lose 2 lbs a week. That nothing else will work for me, there is no miracle diet where I will lose a ton of weight quickly and keep off, and not feel deprived. I need to change my attitude. I need to get the fuck over it, and just push through. Because there is NO OTHER OPTION.
So for tomorrow
I've been tracking again, for the last two days. I'm not really feeling it, but I also don't feel like I have another option, besides giving up, staying the same size, or worse, getting fatter.
I think the hardest part is the realization that this is going to be a LONG process. That I will not always lose 2 lbs a week. That nothing else will work for me, there is no miracle diet where I will lose a ton of weight quickly and keep off, and not feel deprived. I need to change my attitude. I need to get the fuck over it, and just push through. Because there is NO OTHER OPTION.
So for tomorrow
- Track
- Exercise
- Remind myself all day, it sucks to be fat, it's awesome to buy smaller clothes.
- Friends. Mine are the best people on earth
- Being an aunt, and not being a mother right now. I'm okay with it.
- Two arms and two legs. It would suck not to have them.
- Biggest Loser. WOW, those folks are so inspiring!
- Not living in fear like the Japanese right now. My heart is broken for them. I cannot comprehend what they are going through. Honestly, my problems are lame in comparison.
Monday, March 14, 2011
She's back, and she's tired!
Back to work, back to working out, back to tracking. I'm tired!
I had a really great time in the Cape with my friends, it was a long weekend of eating, drinking, and laughing until I was crying.
This week I have a goal of getting back on track. 100%. Tracking, staying within my points, and exercising. Even though I've some successes I have a long road ahead of me. I'd really like to speed it up a little...I know slow and steady wins the race, but I really want some big weight loss numbers this month.
I really need to refocus and recommit to myself.
SO here it goes...
I will exercise 5 days this week. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday.
I will track every day this week.
I will weigh in on Saturday
I will have lost at least 2 lbs.
xoxo Ladies!!
I had a really great time in the Cape with my friends, it was a long weekend of eating, drinking, and laughing until I was crying.
This week I have a goal of getting back on track. 100%. Tracking, staying within my points, and exercising. Even though I've some successes I have a long road ahead of me. I'd really like to speed it up a little...I know slow and steady wins the race, but I really want some big weight loss numbers this month.
I really need to refocus and recommit to myself.
SO here it goes...
I will exercise 5 days this week. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday.
I will track every day this week.
I will weigh in on Saturday
I will have lost at least 2 lbs.
xoxo Ladies!!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Wipe Out Town
I'm headed to Wipe Out Town pretty soon, I am just so exhausted tonight! This week has been stressful and really tiring...which means I've done a crap job of tracking what I eat. I need to figure out a strategy of being mindful, when I feel like I am losing my mind...Does that make sense?
Do any of you write down what you're eating all day long? Like, after eating a meal, you write it down immediately? Or do you do it all at once? I think the part that I am failing with lately is that I'm waiting till the end of the day, which I've always done, but it might not be the best when I've been running around all day going crazy. I'm just so damn beat by the time I finally sit down, which is usually around now, 9:00...
I'd love to hear what you ladies do that keep you check! For now, I am too tired to write anything more, my eyes are starting to cross!!
So much loves to all of you sisters! I don't know where I'd be without you all!!!!
xoxo
Gallant
Do any of you write down what you're eating all day long? Like, after eating a meal, you write it down immediately? Or do you do it all at once? I think the part that I am failing with lately is that I'm waiting till the end of the day, which I've always done, but it might not be the best when I've been running around all day going crazy. I'm just so damn beat by the time I finally sit down, which is usually around now, 9:00...
I'd love to hear what you ladies do that keep you check! For now, I am too tired to write anything more, my eyes are starting to cross!!
So much loves to all of you sisters! I don't know where I'd be without you all!!!!
xoxo
Gallant
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
My Friends = Cool
I am just so thankful today. Thankful for having such amazing women in my life who believe in me, when I need it most.
My best friend told me she got caught up on my blog today. Which really touched me that she is reading it...I am so completely close to her, and it feels so great that she is even a part of this. She is beautiful and inspirational everyday. I love her too much!
Which makes me think of something the ever wise JenWa said, "I think about my friends and how much I love and adore them. How fun and funny and beautiful and smart and just amazing they are. And then I can't help but think that they chose to be friends with me, so that must mean that I am pretty great, too."
The Universe brings like minded totally cool people together, and I am blessed to be part of it.
So, today I ate too many cookies. Not like all out binged, just ate more than I should have. BUT my breakfast, lunch and dinner were pretty good. I still need to track, which I usually do at the end of the night, I wish I could do it throughout the day, it's just not possible, yet.
I went to spinning tonight, which was so much fun. I just love that class and the ladies I share it with. Sadly, I won't be there on Thursday, I've got to pack and cook for my weekend vacation, with my besties, that I am TOTALLY stoked for!! We're going to Cape Cod, and I'm really hoping that it's at least a tiny bit warm and nice out so that we can walk on the beach...my favorite :)
My Intention for tomorrow:
"I am one of the people that I love most"
5 Thankfuls
My nephew Zach, is going to DisneyWorld, his 'Make a Wish Foundation' wish. He is 7 years old, and SURVIVING cancer. MY HERO!
The love of my bestie. I am thankful for her love everyday.
Being able to afford bootcamp. Nothing beats working out with my dear friend Christina!!!
Going to the Cape this weekend, with 10 people I love SO dearly.
My friend Matt who is watching my baby Jones while we're away.
xoxo ladies, love you sooooooooo much!
Gallant
My best friend told me she got caught up on my blog today. Which really touched me that she is reading it...I am so completely close to her, and it feels so great that she is even a part of this. She is beautiful and inspirational everyday. I love her too much!
Which makes me think of something the ever wise JenWa said, "I think about my friends and how much I love and adore them. How fun and funny and beautiful and smart and just amazing they are. And then I can't help but think that they chose to be friends with me, so that must mean that I am pretty great, too."
The Universe brings like minded totally cool people together, and I am blessed to be part of it.
So, today I ate too many cookies. Not like all out binged, just ate more than I should have. BUT my breakfast, lunch and dinner were pretty good. I still need to track, which I usually do at the end of the night, I wish I could do it throughout the day, it's just not possible, yet.
I went to spinning tonight, which was so much fun. I just love that class and the ladies I share it with. Sadly, I won't be there on Thursday, I've got to pack and cook for my weekend vacation, with my besties, that I am TOTALLY stoked for!! We're going to Cape Cod, and I'm really hoping that it's at least a tiny bit warm and nice out so that we can walk on the beach...my favorite :)
My Intention for tomorrow:
"I am one of the people that I love most"
5 Thankfuls
My nephew Zach, is going to DisneyWorld, his 'Make a Wish Foundation' wish. He is 7 years old, and SURVIVING cancer. MY HERO!
The love of my bestie. I am thankful for her love everyday.
Being able to afford bootcamp. Nothing beats working out with my dear friend Christina!!!
Going to the Cape this weekend, with 10 people I love SO dearly.
My friend Matt who is watching my baby Jones while we're away.
xoxo ladies, love you sooooooooo much!
Gallant
Monday, March 7, 2011
SAMOAS have 2 points...
Oh, Samoa cookies, why do I love them so much??? And why doesn't my husband like them so I'd have someone to share them with? And WHY do I know so many Girl Scouts that I feel obligated to buy cookies from?!
SO I woke up from a fog today, a fog where I was not tracking, and not realizing it...What?! I didn't even make the concious choice to not track, I just didn't...
Not good, guesstimating is okay for a day, but not for nearly a week. I need to get back into the habit of being mindful and real about what I am eating and why I am eating it. I know that when I feel overwhelmed by others things, I let myself down first. NEVER letting down anyone else. So why is this an option for me? Why do I constantly let myself down and try so hard not to let down others?
My self worth is sadly not where it should be. All I ever do is focus on what could be better about myself, how nothing is quite right. My weight, my beauty, my hair, my temper, being a friend, a wife, a momma to Jones, a coworker, I do not aknowledge that I am good at any of them. All I ever do is focus on my short comings, that I'm too fat, too selfish, or that my nose is too big. Why is it so hard for me to really appreciate myself? Is it because I was raised by the most modest people I have ever met, who drove into me that any form of self appraisal was rude and unattractive, and quite frankly, not true, because, honestly, who the fuck do I think I am????
WOW.
I need to crack this code, and I need to put more effort into this. To know my worth, to be happy and proud as I am. To not constantly focus on what I am NOT.
How did I get from Samoas cookies to this?!
I always say, I LOVE TO LOVE! Well, it's time I turn some of that onto myself. I need some new intentions, that involve ME.
Tomorrow
I will track everything
I will find some new intentions, for just me :)
I will go to Spinning
I will focus on going on a mini vacation this coming weekend.
I will not let stupid ignorant arrogant old men turn my day to shit (yes, that's what happend today)
THANKFULS
For YOU!
Coffee, my life blood
Money, it's SO cool not freak out about how I'm going to keep my house right now!
My bff, who snapped at me the other day, and appolgised for it. I love the honesty we have.
My husband, who stayed on the phone with me tonight, I was driving home, and the moon looked so cool, I called him to tell him to go look at it, he stayed on the phone with me till he found it...I love him so very much.
SO I woke up from a fog today, a fog where I was not tracking, and not realizing it...What?! I didn't even make the concious choice to not track, I just didn't...
Not good, guesstimating is okay for a day, but not for nearly a week. I need to get back into the habit of being mindful and real about what I am eating and why I am eating it. I know that when I feel overwhelmed by others things, I let myself down first. NEVER letting down anyone else. So why is this an option for me? Why do I constantly let myself down and try so hard not to let down others?
My self worth is sadly not where it should be. All I ever do is focus on what could be better about myself, how nothing is quite right. My weight, my beauty, my hair, my temper, being a friend, a wife, a momma to Jones, a coworker, I do not aknowledge that I am good at any of them. All I ever do is focus on my short comings, that I'm too fat, too selfish, or that my nose is too big. Why is it so hard for me to really appreciate myself? Is it because I was raised by the most modest people I have ever met, who drove into me that any form of self appraisal was rude and unattractive, and quite frankly, not true, because, honestly, who the fuck do I think I am????
WOW.
I need to crack this code, and I need to put more effort into this. To know my worth, to be happy and proud as I am. To not constantly focus on what I am NOT.
How did I get from Samoas cookies to this?!
I always say, I LOVE TO LOVE! Well, it's time I turn some of that onto myself. I need some new intentions, that involve ME.
Tomorrow
I will track everything
I will find some new intentions, for just me :)
I will go to Spinning
I will focus on going on a mini vacation this coming weekend.
I will not let stupid ignorant arrogant old men turn my day to shit (yes, that's what happend today)
THANKFULS
For YOU!
Coffee, my life blood
Money, it's SO cool not freak out about how I'm going to keep my house right now!
My bff, who snapped at me the other day, and appolgised for it. I love the honesty we have.
My husband, who stayed on the phone with me tonight, I was driving home, and the moon looked so cool, I called him to tell him to go look at it, he stayed on the phone with me till he found it...I love him so very much.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I want to be SKINNY dammit!
I had another great work out today, and another day of eating so-so. I finally tracked again today. I realized i hadn't in 3 days...how does that happen? I get busy? I don't want to sub-consciously? I think I've got it all under control? Who knows.
What I do know is that I tracked at least in my head, which is not the same thing at all, but at least I was mindful and reasonable. I want to be skinny dammit! I have NEVER been skinny. I want people to refer to me as thin. I want to jump for joy and not feel things wobble around me (my stomach, my thighs, etc)
So I will be weighing in this Saturday and I'm nervous as HECK.
Also, I figured since I'm keeping my part time job, even with my hubby being employed and all, that my salary there can pay for bootcamp! Yay! I'm going to sign up for 3 months :)
So Cheers to you my FT sisters, I would not be the girl I am today without you, I value all of you, more than you know!!
xoxo - Gallant
Thankfuls
My home, that I've managed to keep, even with all the $$$$ hardships
My sister, she is more than I ever have her credit for when we were little
My husband, for loving me, every single day
My Jonesy, my sweet little doggie, who teaches me to appreciate the little things in life
My FT SISTERS! You are all a blessing to me. Thank you for being on this difficult journey with me <3
What I do know is that I tracked at least in my head, which is not the same thing at all, but at least I was mindful and reasonable. I want to be skinny dammit! I have NEVER been skinny. I want people to refer to me as thin. I want to jump for joy and not feel things wobble around me (my stomach, my thighs, etc)
So I will be weighing in this Saturday and I'm nervous as HECK.
Also, I figured since I'm keeping my part time job, even with my hubby being employed and all, that my salary there can pay for bootcamp! Yay! I'm going to sign up for 3 months :)
So Cheers to you my FT sisters, I would not be the girl I am today without you, I value all of you, more than you know!!
xoxo - Gallant
Thankfuls
My home, that I've managed to keep, even with all the $$$$ hardships
My sister, she is more than I ever have her credit for when we were little
My husband, for loving me, every single day
My Jonesy, my sweet little doggie, who teaches me to appreciate the little things in life
My FT SISTERS! You are all a blessing to me. Thank you for being on this difficult journey with me <3
Monday, February 28, 2011
SKIPPING?!
So I brought the cake to work today, thank the lord! I had a piece last night, but halfway through it, I handed it to my husband to finish it. Everyone really enjoyed it today, so that made me happy :) I know, I'm a total sap, but I genuinely love making people happy, because I know how good it feels to feel happy.
Simple pleasures and the little things is what keeps me going everyday. Today I had bootcamp, and I felt strong, EXCEPT for when they had us skip for 5 minutes, I thought I was going to go into cardiac arrest!!! And all I could think about was; I used to do this for fun as a kid!! Skipping?!?! Since when is that hard?! Well, when you're 33 and over weight, THAT'S when it's hard!
Anyway, I watched the Oscars last night, mainly for the gowns, I'm a total whore for gowns!! I love girlie glamour!! Needless to say I daydreamed all night about what MY gown would look like if I went to the Oscars...AND had my dream body. I cannot wait until I can wear whatever I want and not be limited because of my size. It will come soon :)
That's all for tonight....
xoxo Lovely Ladies
Gallant
THANKFULS
Getting $$$$ back for our tax returns
FINALLY catching up on all of our bills since my husbands been back to work
Bootcamp, I love working out in a community, I need the motivation
Snuggle time with my Jonesy, after my hubby leaves in the morning, my sweet doggie climbs up to snuggle in bed, it's SO CUTE!
Big Love, I love that show, LOVE IT!
Simple pleasures and the little things is what keeps me going everyday. Today I had bootcamp, and I felt strong, EXCEPT for when they had us skip for 5 minutes, I thought I was going to go into cardiac arrest!!! And all I could think about was; I used to do this for fun as a kid!! Skipping?!?! Since when is that hard?! Well, when you're 33 and over weight, THAT'S when it's hard!
Anyway, I watched the Oscars last night, mainly for the gowns, I'm a total whore for gowns!! I love girlie glamour!! Needless to say I daydreamed all night about what MY gown would look like if I went to the Oscars...AND had my dream body. I cannot wait until I can wear whatever I want and not be limited because of my size. It will come soon :)
That's all for tonight....
xoxo Lovely Ladies
Gallant
THANKFULS
Getting $$$$ back for our tax returns
FINALLY catching up on all of our bills since my husbands been back to work
Bootcamp, I love working out in a community, I need the motivation
Snuggle time with my Jonesy, after my hubby leaves in the morning, my sweet doggie climbs up to snuggle in bed, it's SO CUTE!
Big Love, I love that show, LOVE IT!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
A New Rule...
I will not weighing in while Aunt Flo is in town. I have just decided this. I was supposed to go this morning, but instead met my sister in law at a cake decorating shop to browse around. I got some good stuff too! I'm doing a bridal shower next month and want to try making sugar flowers so I got all the stuff to try it out. I was going to weigh in tomorrow, or Monday, and then thought, Fuck it, I don't want to get my bloated ass weighed, I think I'll wait until my water weight won't push me over the edge. I still am tracking everything. Yesterday I went over my points by a lot, pizza and wine will do that...Today, I was pretty good, I did have a piece of cake though...but it was MY birthday cake, what's a girl to do?! I'll be bringing the rest of the cake to work with me on Monday to share with my work homies, lord knows it's not safe for me in this house. I'm the kind of girl who sees cake in fridge at 6:30 in the morning an convinces myself that it's a totally reasonable breakfast. Cake and pizza, my kryptonite!
The cake was for my family party with all my in laws today. I did good with food there, my husband made me some really yummy mini veggie burgers, and I brought veggies and hummus, and that's all I ate :) Yay me! Oh, BESIDES the piece of chocolate, white chocolate mousse layer cake with vanilla butter cream frosting...OH LORD IT IS AMAZING! Must get it the hell outta here, soon!
I even bit my tongue for each passive aggressive comment my mother in law gave me. You'd think she'd give it a rest for my birthday...She thinks she can say something totally shitty to me and follow it up with a laugh, and that makes it okay. I used to get upset, now I just feel sad for someone who doesn't know how to say how she truly feels, walking around with that much resentment is not good for the spirit! She told everyone she had a dream about me and I was 'REALLY RUDE' to her in it, that it was so real she felt like I owed her an apology. I replied "Wow I can't even behave appropriately in your dreams, huh? Weird"
;)
On that note, I will be not eating for the rest of the evening, because I feel bloated from all the veggies and Aunt Flo, I will be having cocktails at a friends house tonight though, and I am more than happy to save my points for those!
xoxo Ladies!! - Gallant
Thankfuls...
Patience with people who want to poop on my parade.
CAKE
My sister in law Cari, we used to not get along at all, now I am so thankful for the relationship I have with her.
The Red Carpet, I'm a total gown whore and the Oscars are on tomorrow :)
My niece Ashley got me a birthday card that says "Queen of All Aunts!" on the front...I made sure to show that to her other Aunts...HAHAHAHAHAHAAA!
The cake was for my family party with all my in laws today. I did good with food there, my husband made me some really yummy mini veggie burgers, and I brought veggies and hummus, and that's all I ate :) Yay me! Oh, BESIDES the piece of chocolate, white chocolate mousse layer cake with vanilla butter cream frosting...OH LORD IT IS AMAZING! Must get it the hell outta here, soon!
I even bit my tongue for each passive aggressive comment my mother in law gave me. You'd think she'd give it a rest for my birthday...She thinks she can say something totally shitty to me and follow it up with a laugh, and that makes it okay. I used to get upset, now I just feel sad for someone who doesn't know how to say how she truly feels, walking around with that much resentment is not good for the spirit! She told everyone she had a dream about me and I was 'REALLY RUDE' to her in it, that it was so real she felt like I owed her an apology. I replied "Wow I can't even behave appropriately in your dreams, huh? Weird"
;)
On that note, I will be not eating for the rest of the evening, because I feel bloated from all the veggies and Aunt Flo, I will be having cocktails at a friends house tonight though, and I am more than happy to save my points for those!
xoxo Ladies!! - Gallant
Thankfuls...
Patience with people who want to poop on my parade.
CAKE
My sister in law Cari, we used to not get along at all, now I am so thankful for the relationship I have with her.
The Red Carpet, I'm a total gown whore and the Oscars are on tomorrow :)
My niece Ashley got me a birthday card that says "Queen of All Aunts!" on the front...I made sure to show that to her other Aunts...HAHAHAHAHAHAAA!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Focus on the Thankful's
I had another great work out today. As far as workouts go, this weeks been great. Eating, not to shabby. I'm really praying that I have a good weigh in this week...I don't want to cry at WW, it's just so tragic.
Work has been pretty awful, there is just way too much work to do, with just me and another girl carrying the load. I have also been fighting with my husband all week, so that's been pretty lame. Oh, and my Dad never called me for my birthday. Seeing as how my Mom and I share the same birthday and he was married to her for 25 years, as well as me being his daughter for 33 years, it seems unlikely that he forgot. He probably just wasn't into it because it wasn't about him. WOW. Sorry for this pity party. I def have the Thursday night burn out!!
I need to go and try and purge all of this negativity I've got rolling around inside of me, it's not cool.
Let's work on a list of Thankful's shall we?!
My little brother telling me he loves me most :)
Even after a fight, the husband and I can still love each other, and tell each other so.
My sister, she is really funny, and totally great.
A memory foam mattress, it's a flippin dream!
Chocolate, dark and bitter, just like my mood today!
xoxo - Gallant
Work has been pretty awful, there is just way too much work to do, with just me and another girl carrying the load. I have also been fighting with my husband all week, so that's been pretty lame. Oh, and my Dad never called me for my birthday. Seeing as how my Mom and I share the same birthday and he was married to her for 25 years, as well as me being his daughter for 33 years, it seems unlikely that he forgot. He probably just wasn't into it because it wasn't about him. WOW. Sorry for this pity party. I def have the Thursday night burn out!!
I need to go and try and purge all of this negativity I've got rolling around inside of me, it's not cool.
Let's work on a list of Thankful's shall we?!
My little brother telling me he loves me most :)
Even after a fight, the husband and I can still love each other, and tell each other so.
My sister, she is really funny, and totally great.
A memory foam mattress, it's a flippin dream!
Chocolate, dark and bitter, just like my mood today!
xoxo - Gallant
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
PHEW!
I have been a workout machine this week! Here's is my schedule, just cause I feel like bragging a little bit ;)
Monday: Bootcamp 1 hour
Tuesday: Spinning 1 hour
Wednesday: Bootcamp 1 hour
Thursday: Spinning 1 hour
Friday: Off
Saturday: Elliptical 1 hour
Sunday: Off
PHEW~ No wonder I'm so tired! I did well with eating today, I did have a slight break down and had some french fries during lunch, not a lot though...anyway, I tracked them, and I'm still where I need to be with my points. Yay!
I'm going to go stretch and meditate now before bed. xoxo Ladies, reading your blogs is one of the things I look forward to most everyday :)
-Gallant
Monday: Bootcamp 1 hour
Tuesday: Spinning 1 hour
Wednesday: Bootcamp 1 hour
Thursday: Spinning 1 hour
Friday: Off
Saturday: Elliptical 1 hour
Sunday: Off
PHEW~ No wonder I'm so tired! I did well with eating today, I did have a slight break down and had some french fries during lunch, not a lot though...anyway, I tracked them, and I'm still where I need to be with my points. Yay!
I'm going to go stretch and meditate now before bed. xoxo Ladies, reading your blogs is one of the things I look forward to most everyday :)
-Gallant
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Short and Sweet-ish
I'm really tired, I probably shouldn't wait until it's so late to blog, but today was long and busy busy.
Nothing much to say, I tracked what I ate today, although I didn't do so great on my birthday weekend...No tracking, but mindful eating. I ate ALOT of pizza on Sunday into Monday, BUT, I went to bootcamp yesterday and worked my arse off, then went to spinning tonight. So far this week I've added 65 activity points to my tracker. I am focused and dedicated to see a loss this week. My trainer also took my measurements yesterday, so in a month, I'll have something to report about that.
So yeah, yesterday was my actual b-day, and I went to bootcamp and had my measurements taken...if that doesn't say "life change" I don't know what does!!
Until tomorrow ladies...
xoxo Gallant
5 thankfuls
Amazing friends
Strength
Feeling Calm
Hot Baths
My Momma
Nothing much to say, I tracked what I ate today, although I didn't do so great on my birthday weekend...No tracking, but mindful eating. I ate ALOT of pizza on Sunday into Monday, BUT, I went to bootcamp yesterday and worked my arse off, then went to spinning tonight. So far this week I've added 65 activity points to my tracker. I am focused and dedicated to see a loss this week. My trainer also took my measurements yesterday, so in a month, I'll have something to report about that.
So yeah, yesterday was my actual b-day, and I went to bootcamp and had my measurements taken...if that doesn't say "life change" I don't know what does!!
Until tomorrow ladies...
xoxo Gallant
5 thankfuls
Amazing friends
Strength
Feeling Calm
Hot Baths
My Momma
Sunday, February 20, 2011
BEST.WEEKEND.EVER.
I am So thankful today. I had such a great weekend!! Friday night, tapas and drinks with Alisa and Flavia. Saturday lame ass weigh in, but went to the gym, THEN, went out for yummmmmmy sushi with hubby, besties and other lovely friends, then came back home to be surprised with a cake and more presents :) THEN tonight after work, I went had delicious pizza with more Alisa and Flavia, plus their cute kids, PLUS more lovely friends, and Tony, my brotha from another Motha :) I cannot tell you how happy I am to have so many amazing people in my life who care to party with me for my b-day. It's just SO cool!
One of my gifts was a gift certificate to my favorite bootcamp, so hopefully I can continue it next month :)
And to all the ladies that suggested tracking measurements, I haven't yet, but my trainer is going to start it for me tomorrow, just during bootcamp, but at least it'll give me a gage...
Until tomorrow!
xoxoxoxo Gallant
One of my gifts was a gift certificate to my favorite bootcamp, so hopefully I can continue it next month :)
And to all the ladies that suggested tracking measurements, I haven't yet, but my trainer is going to start it for me tomorrow, just during bootcamp, but at least it'll give me a gage...
Until tomorrow!
xoxoxoxo Gallant
Saturday, February 19, 2011
WTF
So, I gained another .2 lbs this week. WTF? Again, not a perfect week, but I still tracked, still exercised 4 times, and never even went in to my activity points. I cannot tell you how bummed out and upset I am over this. I feel like such a failure today. I sat in the WW meeting, fighting back tears, not even listening to the meeting, I was just absorbed with upset.
The good news is that instead of walking out and going to stuff my face with bad food, I walked out and went to the gym. I worked my ass off, I was like an anorexic in an after-school special...
I'm having a lot of anxiety for this weekend now...It's my birthday on Monday, and of course everything is revolving around food. Last night I went for Tapas and drinks with Alisa and our dear friend Flavia. It was such a great time, and I think that I made pretty decent choice considering we were at a restaurant. It helps when all the plates were tiny and you're sharing everything. Tonight I'm going for sushi with my bestie, and that should be an okay reasonable meal as well, tomorrow on the other hand, I'm going for pizza. Yes, pizza, my love of all loves...So this is what I'll do. I'll eat lots of fruit and veggies, some egg whites in the morning, so that I have plenty of points that I don't totally blow it.
I really need a loss next week, even if it's just the .4 that I've gained over the last two weeks.
I'm going to go soak my tired body in a hot bath, read, stretch, and then get ready for dinner tonight.
Till tomorrow...
xoxo Gallant
OH, and I AM THANKFUL TO HAVE LADIES LIKE YOU IN MY CORNER. WITHOUT YOU, I WOULD HAVE SAID FUCK IT BY NOW. ;)
The good news is that instead of walking out and going to stuff my face with bad food, I walked out and went to the gym. I worked my ass off, I was like an anorexic in an after-school special...
I'm having a lot of anxiety for this weekend now...It's my birthday on Monday, and of course everything is revolving around food. Last night I went for Tapas and drinks with Alisa and our dear friend Flavia. It was such a great time, and I think that I made pretty decent choice considering we were at a restaurant. It helps when all the plates were tiny and you're sharing everything. Tonight I'm going for sushi with my bestie, and that should be an okay reasonable meal as well, tomorrow on the other hand, I'm going for pizza. Yes, pizza, my love of all loves...So this is what I'll do. I'll eat lots of fruit and veggies, some egg whites in the morning, so that I have plenty of points that I don't totally blow it.
I really need a loss next week, even if it's just the .4 that I've gained over the last two weeks.
I'm going to go soak my tired body in a hot bath, read, stretch, and then get ready for dinner tonight.
Till tomorrow...
xoxo Gallant
OH, and I AM THANKFUL TO HAVE LADIES LIKE YOU IN MY CORNER. WITHOUT YOU, I WOULD HAVE SAID FUCK IT BY NOW. ;)
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I'm gonna feel that tomorrow!
Oh LORDY I am sore. The Pilates, the spinning, the bootcamp, my body feels like one bog sore cramp. I've been working out like a maniac this week, pushing myself more than usual. Probably because I am terrified of another bad weigh in. Lord help me. I need a -# that makes me feel good.
Today was an okay day. I made the most of my day by making sure I was around people at work who make make me laugh, and make me feel appreciated. I'm going to try to still send those I don't care for love and happiness, but I'd still like to keep a bit of distance, ya know?!?!
Bootcamp was really really really hard tonight. I felt week, I can't do a lot of the exercises I was able to do this summer. Hopefully I can get it back soon. I also thought it was discounted for more than a month, but it's not. Boo! After this I might have to try some of the classes at the gym, but the ones I have tried were a joke. I should really give them all a chance before writing them off.
On that note...
I will plan ahead and choose the classes I will try when bootcamp is over.
I will track my food and continue to be honest about it. "Just one bites" count!
I will be kind to people I don't care for
thankful
for having a body that can move and is capable.
for having people appreciate me for me
veggie hot dogs, only 3 points with the bun :)
Jonesy. No one has ever been so flippin happy to see me everyday
Jonesy. No one has ever been so sad to see me go every morning ;)
xoxoxoxoxxoxo!!! -Gallant
Today was an okay day. I made the most of my day by making sure I was around people at work who make make me laugh, and make me feel appreciated. I'm going to try to still send those I don't care for love and happiness, but I'd still like to keep a bit of distance, ya know?!?!
Bootcamp was really really really hard tonight. I felt week, I can't do a lot of the exercises I was able to do this summer. Hopefully I can get it back soon. I also thought it was discounted for more than a month, but it's not. Boo! After this I might have to try some of the classes at the gym, but the ones I have tried were a joke. I should really give them all a chance before writing them off.
On that note...
I will plan ahead and choose the classes I will try when bootcamp is over.
I will track my food and continue to be honest about it. "Just one bites" count!
I will be kind to people I don't care for
thankful
for having a body that can move and is capable.
for having people appreciate me for me
veggie hot dogs, only 3 points with the bun :)
Jonesy. No one has ever been so flippin happy to see me everyday
Jonesy. No one has ever been so sad to see me go every morning ;)
xoxoxoxoxxoxo!!! -Gallant
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Honestly, April...
I've signed up for a 16 week bootcamp! I've done it before, and it was really great. It's honestly the hardest workout I've ever had to do, it's so intense! I know however, that I do best in class/group atmosphere's I'm not competetive at all, but I refuse to give up and feel shamed in front of people, so that's what drives me through the grueling workout. Last time I did this I lost 4 inches in my waist, but lost NO WEIGHT. I thought I was eating okay, but guess what?! I WASN'T! Not even close! I owe this new found knowledge to WW, even though some days I have a love hate relationship with WW. Speaking of WW, I'll be changing my weigh in/meeting day to Fridays. Wednesday I'll be busy getting my booty to bootcamp ;)
I went to spin tonight, did a great pilates workout with my bestie yesterday, and I'll be working out again tomorrow. I love feeling strong, and non jiggly. My birthday is next Monday, and I'm facing an entire weekend of eating and drinking. This is going to be hard. BUT, I'm committed to being mindful and honest about what I'm eating, I may not be perfect, and I may go over my points, but I will hold myself accountable for it. I'm really starting to believe that this is the key to success, being honest.
That's it for me tonight. LOVE LOVE LOVE you ladies.
5 Thankfuls
My second job is paying for bootcamp. COOL.
Being raised by hippie parents, they taught me love, honesty, tolerance, and forgiveness is all you really need.
The song Silver Springs. I know, I know, it came from the hippie parents, but this is one of my favorite all time songs, and is one of the ones I sing at the top of my lungs.
I baked cookies for my work Valentines, and got 3 marriage proposals ;)
A sense of humor. Being mad one minute and being able to laugh at a joke the next, makes my days good. Or makes me bi-polar...whatever, if it means shaking a bad mood quickly, I'm cool with it.
I went to spin tonight, did a great pilates workout with my bestie yesterday, and I'll be working out again tomorrow. I love feeling strong, and non jiggly. My birthday is next Monday, and I'm facing an entire weekend of eating and drinking. This is going to be hard. BUT, I'm committed to being mindful and honest about what I'm eating, I may not be perfect, and I may go over my points, but I will hold myself accountable for it. I'm really starting to believe that this is the key to success, being honest.
That's it for me tonight. LOVE LOVE LOVE you ladies.
5 Thankfuls
My second job is paying for bootcamp. COOL.
Being raised by hippie parents, they taught me love, honesty, tolerance, and forgiveness is all you really need.
The song Silver Springs. I know, I know, it came from the hippie parents, but this is one of my favorite all time songs, and is one of the ones I sing at the top of my lungs.
I baked cookies for my work Valentines, and got 3 marriage proposals ;)
A sense of humor. Being mad one minute and being able to laugh at a joke the next, makes my days good. Or makes me bi-polar...whatever, if it means shaking a bad mood quickly, I'm cool with it.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
WORK IT
So I work. A lot. Too much. I am so scared of my husband being laid off again, I won't quit my second job, but I'm really starting to burn out. For those of you who don't know, my husband was laid off for 14 months, he's been back to work for 2 months, and I pray everyday that it lasts a long time. I really don't want to go back to a life of fearing that we won't have enough money for heat, electricity, much less to keep our house. BLAH, BE GONE BAD THOUGHTS!!!
Anyway, about working a lot, I'm just tired, and I want a break. But, I am thankful for my second job, because it's pretty great, as far as second jobs go...
I've had a good weekend, as far as eating goes, I stayed on track, tracking everything that is. The dinner I had Friday night, I split up into two meals, I had the rest of it tonight. Mind you, this is huge, because the old April would've wolfed all of it down in one sitting. The new April stopped eating eating when she was full. EUREKA!
Tomorrow, I'm planning on doing a Valentines workout with my Bestie, who I usually spend Valentines with, along with my hubby, because her hubby is in the restaurant business and is always working for holidays. So we spend them together.
Tomorrow, I will make great choices, I will be active, and I will work, because it brings me a much needed paycheck!
My 5 Thankfuls...
1. The Grammy's; I'm an awards show whore!
2. My meditation room, yeah, I got one in my house, SO cool!!
3. Knowing that treating people the way I want to be treated, is really the best way to be. Thanks Momma!
4. Cyndi Lauper. I dressed as her 3 years in a row for Halloween when I was little, just because I wanted a reason to tear my tights, wear fingerless gloves and dye my hair, when I was 8.
5. Music. I sing at the top of my lungs when making dinner, and my husband thinks it's cool : )
So much love to you ladies. I am Thankful for YOU everyday!!! xoxoxo -Gallant
Anyway, about working a lot, I'm just tired, and I want a break. But, I am thankful for my second job, because it's pretty great, as far as second jobs go...
I've had a good weekend, as far as eating goes, I stayed on track, tracking everything that is. The dinner I had Friday night, I split up into two meals, I had the rest of it tonight. Mind you, this is huge, because the old April would've wolfed all of it down in one sitting. The new April stopped eating eating when she was full. EUREKA!
Tomorrow, I'm planning on doing a Valentines workout with my Bestie, who I usually spend Valentines with, along with my hubby, because her hubby is in the restaurant business and is always working for holidays. So we spend them together.
Tomorrow, I will make great choices, I will be active, and I will work, because it brings me a much needed paycheck!
My 5 Thankfuls...
1. The Grammy's; I'm an awards show whore!
2. My meditation room, yeah, I got one in my house, SO cool!!
3. Knowing that treating people the way I want to be treated, is really the best way to be. Thanks Momma!
4. Cyndi Lauper. I dressed as her 3 years in a row for Halloween when I was little, just because I wanted a reason to tear my tights, wear fingerless gloves and dye my hair, when I was 8.
5. Music. I sing at the top of my lungs when making dinner, and my husband thinks it's cool : )
So much love to you ladies. I am Thankful for YOU everyday!!! xoxoxo -Gallant
Friday, February 11, 2011
Appreciation
I went out to eat tonight, first time since WW, first time in a LONG time really. We never go out to eat, I love to, we just can't really afford it often. And honestly, being a vegetarian who likes to cook, I usually like my food better than the lame ass choices I have at most restaurants. My hubby isn't really into Asian foods, and I love them cause they're so yummy, but also because I have such a large selection to choose from, instead of a lame ass veggie burger. But he was a good sport and we went for Thai, which just might be my favorite of the Asian cuisines. I was good and didn't get the Drunken Noodles, because I have no control when I eat those, at least not yet, they're just some flippin amazing. I had papaya salad and yellow Curry. I ate half the curry and all of my salad. I feel pretty good about my choices, and also planned ahead today and ate little points so that I could enjoy myself with out feeling guilty.
Tomorrow, I am going to Yoga, and then I'd like to go to the gym, and get some cardio in, but that might be stretching it...we'll see. I've got to organize my clothes. I bought a new dresser, and I'm now blessed with 6 more drawers than I had before. SO exciting!!
Today was a good day at work, because I made it a good day. I baked cupcakes for the carpenters and maintenance guys at work. They have been busting ass all week, and really having a hard time...So I gave them each a plate of 6 with thank you cards, telling them all how much I appreciate them and everything they do. Needless to say I got lots of hugs and smiles : ) Can't beat that!!!
So tomorrow, I wish you all beautiful days filled with nothing but fun and people who truly appreciate how wonderful you are!!
xoxo Gallant
Tomorrow, I am going to Yoga, and then I'd like to go to the gym, and get some cardio in, but that might be stretching it...we'll see. I've got to organize my clothes. I bought a new dresser, and I'm now blessed with 6 more drawers than I had before. SO exciting!!
Today was a good day at work, because I made it a good day. I baked cupcakes for the carpenters and maintenance guys at work. They have been busting ass all week, and really having a hard time...So I gave them each a plate of 6 with thank you cards, telling them all how much I appreciate them and everything they do. Needless to say I got lots of hugs and smiles : ) Can't beat that!!!
So tomorrow, I wish you all beautiful days filled with nothing but fun and people who truly appreciate how wonderful you are!!
xoxo Gallant
Thursday, February 10, 2011
WIPE OUT
I'm so wiped out today. I've be carrying around too much stress from work, and need to realx, because the tension is taking it's toll.
I just wanted to write a quick note, because I finally have a chance to hang out in a hot bathtub this evening, and I just can't pass that up.
SO, I did well with my eating, didn't stay within my points, but I did track it all. I also went to spinning tonight and worked out some of that stress...
Tomorrow, I'm so looking forward to Friday afternoon, when I drive away from work and I don't have to go back for 2 whole days.
Hope you ladies have a fantastic Friday :)
xoxo Gallant
I just wanted to write a quick note, because I finally have a chance to hang out in a hot bathtub this evening, and I just can't pass that up.
SO, I did well with my eating, didn't stay within my points, but I did track it all. I also went to spinning tonight and worked out some of that stress...
Tomorrow, I'm so looking forward to Friday afternoon, when I drive away from work and I don't have to go back for 2 whole days.
Hope you ladies have a fantastic Friday :)
xoxo Gallant
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
the NEW goal
So I gained .2 lbs last week...Not OK. I know, I know, it's only .2 lbs, but it's not a loss, and I only have myself to thank for that. SO, that's what happens when I don't count everything as accuratly as I should, for not tracking AT ALL on Sunday, and for generally just being a bit of a slacker. I am really dissapointed in myself. What it has given me, is a NEW goal...
I WILL LOSE ANOTHER 5 lbs before my birthday, which is the 21st. THIS is the NEW GOAL.
I've also learned something, yesterday, when I came home from work and found my garage roof collapsed, I went straight to the kitchen, and started eating chips and dip...without out even really being aware of it. As 'after school special' as it sounds, I binge when I'm really freaked out, and I'm not even really aware of what's happening until it's half way over...All I want to do is eat when I'm upset. Just because I don't lock myself in the bathroom while doing it, doesn't make it any less of a disorder...
The topic at WW was quite fitting for me today "Am I really hungry?" A question I've just started to ask myself...
The leader had some good tips...Write down 10 other things I could do instead of eat when I feel like emotional eating and post it on the fridge.
I'm going to work on this list tomorrow, because I really need to crack the code on WHY I eat when I'm not hungry. If I'm not truly hungry for food, what am I hungry for? What does my spirit hunger for? BTW, this is nothing new, I've been comforting myself with food for as long as I can remember.
So, all in all, just another day in the quest to figuring out my issues with food, and myself...
Until tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
5 Thankful Things
I snorted when I laughed today...it's totally ugly, but it also means I had a really good, genuine laugh.
Cuddling with my Jonesy puppy in the morning. I let him sneak his 80lb butt into our bed after my husband goes to work and we get cozy. He's like a giant alive teddy bear :)
I didn't gain .3 lbs, I guess that would be worse...
People who believe in me, even when I don't beleive in myself.
Being able to radiate love and compassion to people who may deserve otherwise...
I WILL LOSE ANOTHER 5 lbs before my birthday, which is the 21st. THIS is the NEW GOAL.
I've also learned something, yesterday, when I came home from work and found my garage roof collapsed, I went straight to the kitchen, and started eating chips and dip...without out even really being aware of it. As 'after school special' as it sounds, I binge when I'm really freaked out, and I'm not even really aware of what's happening until it's half way over...All I want to do is eat when I'm upset. Just because I don't lock myself in the bathroom while doing it, doesn't make it any less of a disorder...
The topic at WW was quite fitting for me today "Am I really hungry?" A question I've just started to ask myself...
The leader had some good tips...Write down 10 other things I could do instead of eat when I feel like emotional eating and post it on the fridge.
I'm going to work on this list tomorrow, because I really need to crack the code on WHY I eat when I'm not hungry. If I'm not truly hungry for food, what am I hungry for? What does my spirit hunger for? BTW, this is nothing new, I've been comforting myself with food for as long as I can remember.
So, all in all, just another day in the quest to figuring out my issues with food, and myself...
Until tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
5 Thankful Things
I snorted when I laughed today...it's totally ugly, but it also means I had a really good, genuine laugh.
Cuddling with my Jonesy puppy in the morning. I let him sneak his 80lb butt into our bed after my husband goes to work and we get cozy. He's like a giant alive teddy bear :)
I didn't gain .3 lbs, I guess that would be worse...
People who believe in me, even when I don't beleive in myself.
Being able to radiate love and compassion to people who may deserve otherwise...
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Collapse
As in, my garage roof has collapsed under the weight of all of the snow it's accumulated...SON OF A BITCH.
My husband was able to rig it, so it's not totally down, but it's dropped a good 5 feet. Mind you I have been telling him I was concerned about this happening for weeks now, and he kept shrugging me off as his harpy wife who is a worry wart. Needless to say, he feels like an ass for not listening to me. All I keep telling myself, is thank God it's our garage and not our house!
Enough of that lame topic, I have my weigh in tomorrow, I've been less than perfect this week, so we'll see what that looks like on the scale...
I'm keeping it short tonight, I'm feeling a bit stressed out and bewildered and not so in to blogging...I'll be in a better spirit tomorrow, promise ;)
Tomorrow I want to wake up early, to do some ab work and some meditation, wish me luck!
5 Thankful things
Still having a roof on my house
A mini vacation with my besties in March, yay!
Buying new smaller jeans...OH yeah, I did that yesterday!!!
Kindness of a friend/carpenter who has offered to help us with our garage roof for free
Being able to smile and be kind to people, even when I think they're stupid...
xoxo - Gallant
My husband was able to rig it, so it's not totally down, but it's dropped a good 5 feet. Mind you I have been telling him I was concerned about this happening for weeks now, and he kept shrugging me off as his harpy wife who is a worry wart. Needless to say, he feels like an ass for not listening to me. All I keep telling myself, is thank God it's our garage and not our house!
Enough of that lame topic, I have my weigh in tomorrow, I've been less than perfect this week, so we'll see what that looks like on the scale...
I'm keeping it short tonight, I'm feeling a bit stressed out and bewildered and not so in to blogging...I'll be in a better spirit tomorrow, promise ;)
Tomorrow I want to wake up early, to do some ab work and some meditation, wish me luck!
5 Thankful things
Still having a roof on my house
A mini vacation with my besties in March, yay!
Buying new smaller jeans...OH yeah, I did that yesterday!!!
Kindness of a friend/carpenter who has offered to help us with our garage roof for free
Being able to smile and be kind to people, even when I think they're stupid...
xoxo - Gallant
Monday, February 7, 2011
PHEW!
I can't believe 2 days has gone by and I haven't blogged. This weekend was busy and hectic, and I feel like I didn't get a moment to myself...well I got a little bit on Saturday morning...
I went to yoga Saturday morning, it was so nice, but I over did it a little, and I feel really sore!
Yesterday, was so mental busy, I forgot to track my points and blog. Not cool. I honestly, just didn't think about it. I got up, went to work, ran errands, came home to a houseful of guest ready to watch the Superbowl, so I changed, got all the food ready, 'watched' the game, and then went to bed. Phew! It was a fun evening with friends and good times, but I am a person who needs some alone/quiet time during the weekend, and I didn't get it. Oh well, there's always next weekend. Although I didn't track my food, I did eat mindfully, being aware of everything I put into my face. I did eat too much, but nothing compared to the usual bingeing that would have taken over. So, I don't consider yesterday a total FAIL.
Today was better, work routine always gets me back into a healthy schedule. Tomorrow I will continue to eat well, I'll go to spin, and I will pay my bills...My least favorite thing to do!!
Until tomorrow ladies!
xoxo -Gallant
5 Thankful Things
1.My husband and Father-in-laws pure JOY watching their beloved Packers win. So great!!
2.Yoga. It makes me feel amazing.
3. Wine. I really love wine.
4. Friends with trucks. I bought a dresser and my sweet friend brought it home for me today
5. Peace of Mind. I feel relaxed in my brain today. It's a rare feeling for me.
I went to yoga Saturday morning, it was so nice, but I over did it a little, and I feel really sore!
Yesterday, was so mental busy, I forgot to track my points and blog. Not cool. I honestly, just didn't think about it. I got up, went to work, ran errands, came home to a houseful of guest ready to watch the Superbowl, so I changed, got all the food ready, 'watched' the game, and then went to bed. Phew! It was a fun evening with friends and good times, but I am a person who needs some alone/quiet time during the weekend, and I didn't get it. Oh well, there's always next weekend. Although I didn't track my food, I did eat mindfully, being aware of everything I put into my face. I did eat too much, but nothing compared to the usual bingeing that would have taken over. So, I don't consider yesterday a total FAIL.
Today was better, work routine always gets me back into a healthy schedule. Tomorrow I will continue to eat well, I'll go to spin, and I will pay my bills...My least favorite thing to do!!
Until tomorrow ladies!
xoxo -Gallant
5 Thankful Things
1.My husband and Father-in-laws pure JOY watching their beloved Packers win. So great!!
2.Yoga. It makes me feel amazing.
3. Wine. I really love wine.
4. Friends with trucks. I bought a dresser and my sweet friend brought it home for me today
5. Peace of Mind. I feel relaxed in my brain today. It's a rare feeling for me.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Mid Life Crisis, Anyone?
Today was better. Today I got out of doing a 6 month project that I really didn't want to be a part of at work. And best yet, my enemy got stuck with it instead :)~ Karma's a bitch!
Ohhh, work. I'm really not into it. I want to do something else, and I don't know what. I want to go to culinary school, but I don't want to butcher animals, and I'm pretty sure that's part of it. Then I think, pastry school, but then I feel like that is just too narrow...Then I think about opening my own place, but after about 5 minutes, the thought scares the shit out of me. I don't know. I just don't know!
As for food, I did good today, I even got Alisa and I some healthy, albeit, not so totally yummy snacks, but I still made a good choice for us. It helped that I don't eat meat, and she's not eating dairy, so that narrowed the options quite a bit! I loved spending time with her and baby Luca Joe, that little boy is a heart breaker!
So my goal for tomorrow, to really start to figure out what I truly want to do with myself. I need to spend more time reflecting on this so that I have a goal and some direction, because career wise, I feel like I'm just floating around.
So tomorrow, I will be going to yoga, weather permitting (yeah, it's going to snow...AGAIN) I will be making food for super bowl extravaganza, and I will spend some time trying figure out what to do with myself when I grow up.
5 THANKFUL things
My Jonesy, I know I'm a weirdo, but I really love him so much.
Having any job at all. My husband was laid off for 14 months, don't think I don't know how lucky I am to have a paycheck!
Luca Joe's smile, so flippin cute, it made my day!
For losing 10 lbs, that feels good to say.
My friends, all of them, I am so blessed.
xoxo Sisters!! -Gallant
Ohhh, work. I'm really not into it. I want to do something else, and I don't know what. I want to go to culinary school, but I don't want to butcher animals, and I'm pretty sure that's part of it. Then I think, pastry school, but then I feel like that is just too narrow...Then I think about opening my own place, but after about 5 minutes, the thought scares the shit out of me. I don't know. I just don't know!
As for food, I did good today, I even got Alisa and I some healthy, albeit, not so totally yummy snacks, but I still made a good choice for us. It helped that I don't eat meat, and she's not eating dairy, so that narrowed the options quite a bit! I loved spending time with her and baby Luca Joe, that little boy is a heart breaker!
So my goal for tomorrow, to really start to figure out what I truly want to do with myself. I need to spend more time reflecting on this so that I have a goal and some direction, because career wise, I feel like I'm just floating around.
So tomorrow, I will be going to yoga, weather permitting (yeah, it's going to snow...AGAIN) I will be making food for super bowl extravaganza, and I will spend some time trying figure out what to do with myself when I grow up.
5 THANKFUL things
My Jonesy, I know I'm a weirdo, but I really love him so much.
Having any job at all. My husband was laid off for 14 months, don't think I don't know how lucky I am to have a paycheck!
Luca Joe's smile, so flippin cute, it made my day!
For losing 10 lbs, that feels good to say.
My friends, all of them, I am so blessed.
xoxo Sisters!! -Gallant
Thursday, February 3, 2011
-10 lbs. whooot whoooot!
So I FINALLY weighed in today, after 2 weeks of missing my meetings due to the fact that I live in the Fucking North Pole...anyway, I lost 2.6lbs, which got me to official weight loss since starting of 10lbs. Totally cool. I'm really hoping next week will be better, since I won't be all bloated and I'll have worked out a few times instead of sitting on my ass having the flu and eating pizza. MmmmMmmmm, pizza. It's my crack.
I had a really bad day today. I had to hide in a room today to calm down twice so I didn't go postal. Not so Zen of me, I know, but between working with crazy assholes and being menstrual, well, people should be afraid. I have a goal of being a more peaceful person, meditating more, realizing some people are awful and that I can work around it, because I am a better person. But sometimes Ghetto Gallant comes out, and I put my hair in a ponytail, take my earrings out, and I want to throw down. Instead of acting on that, I lock myself in a room until I can get it together, tap my third eye, awaken my peaceful spirit, and make an honest effort not to get arrested at work for physical violence.
So my goal for tomorrow is spend a little time meditating before I go to work. I really need to get myself to a good place before I enter that building again.
OH, and I get to see Alisa and Luca tomorrow too, and I'm so excited to smooch that little man and tell him how handsome he is :)
5 Thankful Things
1. Good Hair. My hair generally never lets me down.
2. Laughter. I love it.
3. My sister, I love our relationship, it's gotten really cool in the last few years.
4. People who say, Mmmmmmmmmm, after they've eaten something I've baked. It's my favorite.
5. Coffee. I'm from Seattle, and I will NEVER give it up. I love it too much.
I had a really bad day today. I had to hide in a room today to calm down twice so I didn't go postal. Not so Zen of me, I know, but between working with crazy assholes and being menstrual, well, people should be afraid. I have a goal of being a more peaceful person, meditating more, realizing some people are awful and that I can work around it, because I am a better person. But sometimes Ghetto Gallant comes out, and I put my hair in a ponytail, take my earrings out, and I want to throw down. Instead of acting on that, I lock myself in a room until I can get it together, tap my third eye, awaken my peaceful spirit, and make an honest effort not to get arrested at work for physical violence.
So my goal for tomorrow is spend a little time meditating before I go to work. I really need to get myself to a good place before I enter that building again.
OH, and I get to see Alisa and Luca tomorrow too, and I'm so excited to smooch that little man and tell him how handsome he is :)
5 Thankful Things
1. Good Hair. My hair generally never lets me down.
2. Laughter. I love it.
3. My sister, I love our relationship, it's gotten really cool in the last few years.
4. People who say, Mmmmmmmmmm, after they've eaten something I've baked. It's my favorite.
5. Coffee. I'm from Seattle, and I will NEVER give it up. I love it too much.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Shit is getting REAL
In the last two weeks, with the weather being shit, and not being able to do my weigh ins and meetings due to cancellations, and not being able to go to my classes because of my flu for the last week...well...I feel like crap.
I feel dangerously close to falling off the deep end. This is a perfect storm for me to give up, lose motivation, and fall into bad habits. This scares the hell out of me.
Today, I am thankful for this blog, to have a way to cry for help, or at least cry "uh oh, shit is getting real, and I'm scared I won't succeed."
I am thankful for all of you, so that I can be honest and not feel judged about this crazy up and down struggle, it is so comforting to know I'm not in this alone.
I ate within my points today, I did not go to the gym, as it's not safe to drive because of ice covering the streets.
Tomorrow, I really want to be active, because not being active, makes me feel anxious and depressed.
UGGGGGG!
Tomorrow, I pray for a more positive day.
5 Gratitudes
I am grateful for my FT sisters
I am grateful for self awareness
I am grateful for my doggie, who is SO happy to see me, everytime I walk into the room he throws a party for me :)
I am grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, including my best ladies kids, who are just as dear to me as the 'official' ones ;) (Luca, Mia, baby Blanchard on the way, you make Auntie April's heart MELT)
I am grateful for forgiveness. To myself, and to others, Everyone deserves it in my book.
LOVES and Goodnights to you all. xoxo - Gallant
I feel dangerously close to falling off the deep end. This is a perfect storm for me to give up, lose motivation, and fall into bad habits. This scares the hell out of me.
Today, I am thankful for this blog, to have a way to cry for help, or at least cry "uh oh, shit is getting real, and I'm scared I won't succeed."
I am thankful for all of you, so that I can be honest and not feel judged about this crazy up and down struggle, it is so comforting to know I'm not in this alone.
I ate within my points today, I did not go to the gym, as it's not safe to drive because of ice covering the streets.
Tomorrow, I really want to be active, because not being active, makes me feel anxious and depressed.
UGGGGGG!
Tomorrow, I pray for a more positive day.
5 Gratitudes
I am grateful for my FT sisters
I am grateful for self awareness
I am grateful for my doggie, who is SO happy to see me, everytime I walk into the room he throws a party for me :)
I am grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, including my best ladies kids, who are just as dear to me as the 'official' ones ;) (Luca, Mia, baby Blanchard on the way, you make Auntie April's heart MELT)
I am grateful for forgiveness. To myself, and to others, Everyone deserves it in my book.
LOVES and Goodnights to you all. xoxo - Gallant
Monday, January 31, 2011
A roof rake? REALLY?
This is what I used this evening to get the 2 feet of snow off of my garage, and the back end of my house...I live on a hill, so the roof is REALLLLY high, we had extension poles, all sorts of butch things. Then we had to rig another contraption to loosen the snow that has frozen, so that we could then rake this off. This is all because of the 4 feet of snow we've gotten in the last month, and the horror stories I keep seeing on the news of peoples roofs collapsing under all the weight...OH, did I mention we're getting 10" more tomorrow? And then a wicked awesome ice storm the next day. Hence the manic roof raking that was done tonight by myself and my husband.
All of this left no time for the gym. So I raked my roof, chipped ice, made dinner, and paid our monthly bills. Now I'm wishing I had a bottle of wine to wash it all down. That would be amazing.
So tomorrow, I will go to the gym, weather permitting. This winter is not conducive to my exercise plan, btw!! I'll also make good choices with what I eat, and track every single stupid point. Yep, Monday bitterness, in full effect over here!!!
Have a great Tuesday lovely ladies, I know I'm crossing my fingers :)
xoxo - Gallant
5 thankful things...
A roof over my head during this bitter mean winter
Enough money to pay my monthly bills (THIS IS HUGE, BTW!!)
My Uncle Bert, he's so awesome. I love him so much!
A car that is relatively new, that will get me where I need to be.
HEAT. I love having heat, and I'm OH so thankful for it.
All of this left no time for the gym. So I raked my roof, chipped ice, made dinner, and paid our monthly bills. Now I'm wishing I had a bottle of wine to wash it all down. That would be amazing.
So tomorrow, I will go to the gym, weather permitting. This winter is not conducive to my exercise plan, btw!! I'll also make good choices with what I eat, and track every single stupid point. Yep, Monday bitterness, in full effect over here!!!
Have a great Tuesday lovely ladies, I know I'm crossing my fingers :)
xoxo - Gallant
5 thankful things...
A roof over my head during this bitter mean winter
Enough money to pay my monthly bills (THIS IS HUGE, BTW!!)
My Uncle Bert, he's so awesome. I love him so much!
A car that is relatively new, that will get me where I need to be.
HEAT. I love having heat, and I'm OH so thankful for it.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
The HULK
So today I went to work. Mind you, aside from the Dr on Friday I have not left my house since Wednesday...
The parking lot at my Sunday job has not been plowed once in the last 4 feet of snow it's accumulated. It's F'n crazy, and I'm a New Englander that does not drive some crazy giant 4 wheel drive beast, I drive a Scion. A Scion that got stuck in the snow; in the middle of the lot. I had to go into my place of business, get a shovel, and shovel my car out so that I could park it. Did I mention that I am just now trying to recover from the flu? While shoveling I had visions of myself, turning into the Hulk, picking up all of the cars in the parking lot, hurling them down the street in a fit of rage, screaming "THIS SNOW, THIS FU#KING SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep Breath, centering spirit. I got my car unstuck, parked it, and did my job of making cookies and sandwiches for people enjoying the day off.
I am going to attempt the gym tomorrow. Just to walk, I won't go crazy as I'm still recovering. I don't have a fever anymore, but I'm certainly not feeling great yet. I just need to get moving again. I feel like a blob. I feel fat and bloated. Is this really what not working out for a week and eating too many carbs does to me? Yes, yes it does.
So I'm excited to get back into the swing of things, getting better, and staying healthy.
Thank you all for blogging, for giving me something funny and inspiring to read, and honestly, something to look forward too :)
Loves to all you lovely ladies!!
OH, and 5 things I am thankful for:
My husband. He offered to come dig my car out and deal with all of it this morning when I called him in a fit of rage. He's a smart and kind man. He heard the HULK in my voice.
My dog, he makes me happy every time I look at him.
My house, it's small, but I really love my home.
My bathtub, it's claw foot, deep, and oh sooo dreamy!
My Job, even though sometimes it's lame, I work with people who honestly make me laugh. I LOVE to LAUGH.
The parking lot at my Sunday job has not been plowed once in the last 4 feet of snow it's accumulated. It's F'n crazy, and I'm a New Englander that does not drive some crazy giant 4 wheel drive beast, I drive a Scion. A Scion that got stuck in the snow; in the middle of the lot. I had to go into my place of business, get a shovel, and shovel my car out so that I could park it. Did I mention that I am just now trying to recover from the flu? While shoveling I had visions of myself, turning into the Hulk, picking up all of the cars in the parking lot, hurling them down the street in a fit of rage, screaming "THIS SNOW, THIS FU#KING SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep Breath, centering spirit. I got my car unstuck, parked it, and did my job of making cookies and sandwiches for people enjoying the day off.
I am going to attempt the gym tomorrow. Just to walk, I won't go crazy as I'm still recovering. I don't have a fever anymore, but I'm certainly not feeling great yet. I just need to get moving again. I feel like a blob. I feel fat and bloated. Is this really what not working out for a week and eating too many carbs does to me? Yes, yes it does.
So I'm excited to get back into the swing of things, getting better, and staying healthy.
Thank you all for blogging, for giving me something funny and inspiring to read, and honestly, something to look forward too :)
Loves to all you lovely ladies!!
OH, and 5 things I am thankful for:
My husband. He offered to come dig my car out and deal with all of it this morning when I called him in a fit of rage. He's a smart and kind man. He heard the HULK in my voice.
My dog, he makes me happy every time I look at him.
My house, it's small, but I really love my home.
My bathtub, it's claw foot, deep, and oh sooo dreamy!
My Job, even though sometimes it's lame, I work with people who honestly make me laugh. I LOVE to LAUGH.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Flu Feeding Frenzy
Hey Ladies,
I'm still Typhoid Mary, I finally went to the doctor today and was diagnosed with the flu. So exciting, because there is nothing that can be done with the flu. I never get an illness that can be cured with medicine, I am the queen of viruses.
So, one thing I've been paying attention to while wallowing in illness and misery (I am a total dramatic baby when I'm sick btw) is that all I want to do is EAT. Why can't I be the person who comes back from an illness and be down 5lbs?! Because I am a fat girl, who eats out of boredom and feeling sad. I know that I feed myself to make myself feel better...This is not the recommended thing to do for the flu. Mind you, I don't have an appetite per say, just wanna eat. I'm trying to be reasonable, and I am consciously eating, so that is a plus at least. I am also tracking all of it, no matter how ugly it gets.
The worst part is that I can't work out, I get dizzy standing up for lords sake, but exercise really is my anti-depressant/anti-anxiety. I did manage to stretch last night, and I'm going to give a whirl again tonight.
On the bright side, I've been researching culinary schools to go to, this is my dream when my financial life is a bit more stable....
That's it for me today, I've missed blogging with you ladies. I hope I feel up to again tomorrow. I have been reading all of yours, and it's SO great to have all of your company :)
Loves to you all!!!
xoxo Gallant
I'm still Typhoid Mary, I finally went to the doctor today and was diagnosed with the flu. So exciting, because there is nothing that can be done with the flu. I never get an illness that can be cured with medicine, I am the queen of viruses.
So, one thing I've been paying attention to while wallowing in illness and misery (I am a total dramatic baby when I'm sick btw) is that all I want to do is EAT. Why can't I be the person who comes back from an illness and be down 5lbs?! Because I am a fat girl, who eats out of boredom and feeling sad. I know that I feed myself to make myself feel better...This is not the recommended thing to do for the flu. Mind you, I don't have an appetite per say, just wanna eat. I'm trying to be reasonable, and I am consciously eating, so that is a plus at least. I am also tracking all of it, no matter how ugly it gets.
The worst part is that I can't work out, I get dizzy standing up for lords sake, but exercise really is my anti-depressant/anti-anxiety. I did manage to stretch last night, and I'm going to give a whirl again tonight.
On the bright side, I've been researching culinary schools to go to, this is my dream when my financial life is a bit more stable....
That's it for me today, I've missed blogging with you ladies. I hope I feel up to again tomorrow. I have been reading all of yours, and it's SO great to have all of your company :)
Loves to you all!!!
xoxo Gallant
Monday, January 24, 2011
Meditative Meaning
I know we've all joked about being nicer people as one of our resolutions, and, well, you can add me to the list. Tonight, I did't work out, because I forgot it's Monday and this is my cleaning/prepare for the rest of the week night. Which I did! My house isn't spotless, but I wouldn't be horrified if someone stopped by un-annouced, and I made a ton of Veggie Tofu Fried Rice for dinner, which will also be lunch for the rest of the week. Awesome, and so very yummy!
In addition to being a domestic goddess tonight, I also meditated for awhile. My intention during meditation, visualizing love, compassion, openess, and honesty for some people I work with that are really causing me upset. This may sound stupid to some, but I do believe that people who are difficult, mean, or unlikeable are that way because they don't recieve enough love in their lives. So I try and send them some during meditation. It's difficult, but it works, and it makes me feel better too. I'm not going to let them bring me down man! This is not something I have been able to master being open to on a daily basis, but when the mood strikes, I take advantage.
Tomorrow, I will have a better day. I will be happy at work, I will eat sensibly, I will be mindful of how I talk to people.
I know you all will have a great day tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
In addition to being a domestic goddess tonight, I also meditated for awhile. My intention during meditation, visualizing love, compassion, openess, and honesty for some people I work with that are really causing me upset. This may sound stupid to some, but I do believe that people who are difficult, mean, or unlikeable are that way because they don't recieve enough love in their lives. So I try and send them some during meditation. It's difficult, but it works, and it makes me feel better too. I'm not going to let them bring me down man! This is not something I have been able to master being open to on a daily basis, but when the mood strikes, I take advantage.
Tomorrow, I will have a better day. I will be happy at work, I will eat sensibly, I will be mindful of how I talk to people.
I know you all will have a great day tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
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