I've been tracking again, for the last two days. I'm not really feeling it, but I also don't feel like I have another option, besides giving up, staying the same size, or worse, getting fatter.
I think the hardest part is the realization that this is going to be a LONG process. That I will not always lose 2 lbs a week. That nothing else will work for me, there is no miracle diet where I will lose a ton of weight quickly and keep off, and not feel deprived. I need to change my attitude. I need to get the fuck over it, and just push through. Because there is NO OTHER OPTION.
So for tomorrow
- Track
- Exercise
- Remind myself all day, it sucks to be fat, it's awesome to buy smaller clothes.
- Friends. Mine are the best people on earth
- Being an aunt, and not being a mother right now. I'm okay with it.
- Two arms and two legs. It would suck not to have them.
- Biggest Loser. WOW, those folks are so inspiring!
- Not living in fear like the Japanese right now. My heart is broken for them. I cannot comprehend what they are going through. Honestly, my problems are lame in comparison.
Thanks for the laugh! "Transformer action figure". Hahaha! xoxo
ReplyDeleteMore than meets the eye...Puma and Nike has some "cute" shoes that wont' make you gag too much. I like fitness shoes, they're so big, they make my ankles look skinny. Really, I shouldn't complain either...but it's hard not to. I guess we should really be grateful for what we've got...<<---so cliche; I know, but it's true.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sad for Japan too. I know you and Alisa have friends out there so it must be much closer to your heart. On a different note, my leader said to me that I have to be able to do what I'm doing now for life. There will be days when you just don't want to think about this and it's totally normal. There will also be days where it seems so easy. We will get there and we will get there this year. I have NO doubt. None! My mantra for when I feel frustrated or doubtful is "I can, I will, I am!"
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