Wednesday, February 9, 2011

the NEW goal

So I gained .2 lbs last week...Not OK.  I know, I know, it's only .2 lbs, but it's not a loss, and I only have myself to thank for that.  SO, that's what happens when I don't count everything as accuratly as I should, for not tracking AT ALL on Sunday, and for generally just being a bit of a slacker.  I am really dissapointed in myself.  What it has given me, is a NEW goal...

I WILL LOSE ANOTHER 5 lbs before my birthday, which is the 21st.  THIS is the NEW GOAL.

I've also learned something, yesterday, when I came home from work and found my garage roof collapsed, I went straight to the kitchen, and started eating chips and dip...without out even really being aware of it.  As 'after school special' as it sounds, I binge when I'm really freaked out, and I'm not even really aware of what's happening until it's half way over...All I want to do is eat when I'm upset.  Just because I don't lock myself in the bathroom while doing it, doesn't make it any less of a disorder...

The topic at WW was quite fitting for me today "Am I really hungry?"  A question I've just started to ask myself...
The leader had some good tips...Write down 10 other things I could do instead of eat when I feel like emotional eating and post it on the fridge.
I'm going to work on this list tomorrow, because I really need to crack the code on WHY I eat when I'm not hungry.  If I'm not truly hungry for food, what am I hungry for?  What does my spirit hunger for?  BTW, this is nothing new, I've been comforting myself with food for as long as I can remember.

So, all in all, just another day in the quest to figuring out my issues with food, and myself...

Until tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant

5 Thankful Things
I snorted when I laughed today...it's totally ugly, but it also means I had a really good, genuine laugh.
Cuddling with my Jonesy puppy in the morning.  I let him sneak his 80lb butt into our bed after my husband goes to work and we get cozy.  He's like a giant alive teddy bear :)
I didn't gain .3 lbs, I guess that would be worse...
People who believe in me, even when I don't beleive in myself.
Being able to radiate love and compassion to people who may deserve otherwise...

2 comments:

  1. Let me know what you come up with for your list. I have the exact same issue with food! I comfort myself with it and I celebrate with it. I'm okay with the celebrating to a certain extent, but I still need to figure out how stop and walk away when I'm finished. Nothing better than a good laugh :-)

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  2. Thank you for posting this April! I eat mindlessly too when I'm really upset. Even if I track it, I can tell when I'm out of control. The more we acknowledge it, the better we deal the next time around. You're awesome!

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