In the last two weeks, with the weather being shit, and not being able to do my weigh ins and meetings due to cancellations, and not being able to go to my classes because of my flu for the last week...well...I feel like crap.
I feel dangerously close to falling off the deep end. This is a perfect storm for me to give up, lose motivation, and fall into bad habits. This scares the hell out of me.
Today, I am thankful for this blog, to have a way to cry for help, or at least cry "uh oh, shit is getting real, and I'm scared I won't succeed."
I am thankful for all of you, so that I can be honest and not feel judged about this crazy up and down struggle, it is so comforting to know I'm not in this alone.
I ate within my points today, I did not go to the gym, as it's not safe to drive because of ice covering the streets.
Tomorrow, I really want to be active, because not being active, makes me feel anxious and depressed.
UGGGGGG!
Tomorrow, I pray for a more positive day.
5 Gratitudes
I am grateful for my FT sisters
I am grateful for self awareness
I am grateful for my doggie, who is SO happy to see me, everytime I walk into the room he throws a party for me :)
I am grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, including my best ladies kids, who are just as dear to me as the 'official' ones ;) (Luca, Mia, baby Blanchard on the way, you make Auntie April's heart MELT)
I am grateful for forgiveness. To myself, and to others, Everyone deserves it in my book.
LOVES and Goodnights to you all. xoxo - Gallant
April I completely understand how you feel. Shit is getting REAL! The weather and not exercising is taking out my steam too. I am going to make a commitment to you personally that I will NOT go over my points tomorrow and I WILL work out at home. I will also do something tender for myself and tell myself how awesome I am at least 3 times tomorrow. I want you to commit the same to me.
ReplyDeleteI just realized tender sounded really weird. :) I want to change that to nurturing.
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