So, I gained another 3.5 lbs. I have not been tracking, I have been eating my feelings, and feeling like crap about it.
I've been having a hard time the last month. Too much stress, depression, it's all been winning the race. I've still been working out, but apparently not enough to offset eating like an animal.
My Grandpa fell into a coma last week after suffering some serious illness caused by his dementia, in short, he's dying. That has been the cherry on top of the stress/depression cake. I always turn to food when I'm upset and feeling lonely and freaked out. Today I made an attempt to stop that cycle. I went to my first WW meeting in weeks, faced the ugly truth of the scale, and ate balanced and mindfully and went to cycling. Tomorrow I will start tracking again. I need NEED neeeeeed to remind myself that stuffing my face and getting fatter is just going to make me feel worse.
Tomorrow I will
TRACK WHAT I EAT
GO TO BOOTCAMP
BUY A CALENDAR TO SCHEDULE MY WORK OUTS, WW MEETINGS, CAKE ORDERS, ETC.
BE THANKFUL AND FILLED WITH LOVE FOR MYSELF
xoxo Gallant
I am so sorry :-( I wish I could say something to make you feel better or give you a hug or something. I can only imagine how difficult this is for you. If I was close, I'd bring you some calorie free wine and some fat free chips and dips that taste like real chips and dips, along with other miraculous foods, and like 5 funny chick flicks and we would laugh and laugh an laugh and by the 4th movie, when my drunk ass starts rolling out my my sleeping bag, your husband would whisper to you "did you invite her to stay" and you be like "no, but she brought miraculous foods and wine so I couldn't tell her to go home" and this would all be kind of awkward, but I wouldn't notice because I'd be passed out with Jonesy licking my face. Aren't glad I live really far away?? I think I just wrote a Hallmark card. Feel better. xoxo
ReplyDeleteJENWA, you're a delight! You always make me laugh. I can't wait till that sleep over becomes a reality! xoxo
ReplyDeleteLife--how come no one told us it has so many ups and downs? I think to myslef, "damn, I am stressed and it's getting tough!" I realize we are dealing with something. I don't have any sort of brillant advice, but I can say you are truly lucky to have your grandfather a large part of your life.
ReplyDeleteGet back on track, we have room on the wagon, your awesome and will get back on track!!!!
I missed you soooo much! I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. You are one terrific gal and you love sooo much. I'm sure your grandpa and your entire family is really proud of the woman you are. It's okay to fall off because it reminds us of where we are going and where we want to be. You get a brand new start. This is forever and it will take lots of trips and falls but you just keep getting back up like you are. We are here to support and love you. Forgive yourself and comfort yourself. I can't wait for movie night. xxoo
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