Hello my name is Eatie McEaterson

CAN'T. STOP. EATING.

Yesterday and today I have blown through me extra weekly points.  UGGGGGG.  I haven't touched the my 'Activity' points yet, and I'm going to try really hard not too!  I've had a weekend of back sliding and I'm not very pleased with myself.  Nothing crazy, no bingeing, just snacking, snacking and more snacking.  I feel lousy.

I know that my eating has some sort of emotional link, but I can't pin point it yet.  I won't give up on my quest to figure it out though.  This was and is my goal for the year, to crack the code with my food issues.  I know a lot of it has to do with being raised with a skinny sister, and constantly being compared to her.  My Mom telling me I can't have a certain food, telling me, I'm not as lucky as my sister, she can eat whatever she wants, but I have to watch my weight.  Mind you I was about 10 when this started.  I'm not mad or resentful with my Mom, she is a kind soul who would never have said those things if she really understood the impact of her words.  But they were said, they sunk in, and I know that this is really the root of the issues I have.  However, I'm still trying to figure out what triggers my need to eat things that I shouldn't, to eat too much, and then to hate myself for it.  It's a really ugly cycle.  Thankfully this has been the first time since I joined WW that I've felt this way.
The good news is, I spent my day off doing some things I love.  I went to a very theraputic yoga class, I had brunch with my Bestie, at a delicious restaraunt, and even though I wanted the portabello eggs benedict, I ordered the veggie egg white omlette instead. :)
Today at work it was slow, and in turn I snacked WAY too much.  I tracked everything, facing the awful truth. 
Tomorrow I will make good choices for myself, I will look at it as a new day to right the wrongs I brought to myself this weekend, and I will excerise...because I feel guilty.

Cheers to a happy peaceful Monday my FT sistahs!
xoxo- Gallant