SKIPPING?!

So I brought the cake to work today, thank the lord!  I had a piece last night, but halfway through it, I handed it to my husband to finish it.   Everyone really enjoyed it today, so that made me happy :)  I know, I'm a total sap, but I genuinely love making people happy, because I know how good it feels to feel happy. 
Simple pleasures and the little things is what keeps me going everyday.  Today I had bootcamp, and I felt strong, EXCEPT for when they had us skip for 5 minutes, I thought I was going to go into cardiac arrest!!!  And all I could think about was; I used to do this for fun as a kid!! Skipping?!?! Since when is that hard?!  Well, when you're 33 and over weight, THAT'S when it's hard!
Anyway, I watched the Oscars last night, mainly for the gowns, I'm a total whore for gowns!!  I love girlie glamour!!  Needless to say I daydreamed all night about what MY gown would look like if I went to the Oscars...AND had my dream body.  I cannot wait until I can wear whatever I want and not be limited because of my size.  It will come soon :)
That's all for tonight....
xoxo Lovely Ladies

Gallant

THANKFULS

Getting $$$$ back for our tax returns
FINALLY catching up on all of our bills since my husbands been back to work
Bootcamp, I love working out in a community, I need the motivation
Snuggle time with my Jonesy, after my hubby leaves in the morning, my sweet doggie climbs up to snuggle in bed, it's SO CUTE!
Big Love, I love that show, LOVE IT!

A New Rule...

I will not weighing in while Aunt Flo is in town.  I have just decided this.  I was supposed to go this morning, but instead met my sister in law at a cake decorating shop to browse around.  I got some good stuff too!  I'm doing a bridal shower next month and want to try making sugar flowers so I got all the stuff to try it out.  I was going to weigh in tomorrow, or Monday, and then thought, Fuck it, I don't want to get my bloated ass weighed, I think I'll wait until my water weight won't push me over the edge.  I still am tracking everything.  Yesterday I went over my points by a lot, pizza and wine will do that...Today, I was pretty good, I did have a piece of cake though...but it was MY birthday cake, what's a girl to do?!  I'll be bringing the rest of the cake to work with me on Monday to share with my work homies, lord knows it's not safe for me in this house.  I'm the kind of girl who sees cake in fridge at 6:30 in the morning an convinces myself that it's a totally reasonable breakfast.  Cake and pizza, my kryptonite! 
The cake was for my family party with all my in laws today.  I did good with food there, my husband made me some really yummy mini veggie burgers, and I brought veggies and hummus, and that's all I ate :)  Yay me!  Oh, BESIDES the piece of chocolate, white chocolate mousse layer cake with vanilla butter cream frosting...OH LORD IT IS AMAZING!  Must get it the hell outta here, soon!
I even bit my tongue for each passive aggressive comment my mother in law gave me.  You'd think she'd give it a rest for my birthday...She thinks she can say something totally shitty to me and follow it up with a laugh, and that makes it okay.  I used to get upset, now I just feel sad for someone who doesn't know how to say how she truly feels, walking around with that much resentment is not good for the spirit!  She told everyone she had a dream about me and I was 'REALLY RUDE' to her in it, that it was so real she felt like I owed her an apology.  I replied "Wow I can't even behave appropriately in your dreams, huh?  Weird"
;)

On that note, I will be not eating for the rest of the evening, because I feel bloated from all the veggies and Aunt Flo, I will be having cocktails at a friends house tonight though, and I am more than happy to save my points for those!

xoxo Ladies!!  - Gallant

Thankfuls...

Patience with people who want to poop on my parade.
CAKE
My sister in law Cari, we used to not get along at all, now I am so thankful for the relationship I have with her.
The Red Carpet, I'm a total gown whore and the Oscars are on tomorrow :)
My niece Ashley got me a birthday card that says "Queen of All Aunts!" on the front...I made sure to show that to her other Aunts...HAHAHAHAHAHAAA!

Focus on the Thankful's

I had another great work out today.  As far as workouts go, this weeks been great.  Eating, not to shabby.  I'm really praying that I have a good weigh in this week...I don't want to cry at WW, it's just so tragic. 
Work has been pretty awful, there is just way too much work to do, with just me and another girl carrying the load.  I have also been fighting with my husband all week, so that's been pretty lame.  Oh, and my Dad never called me for my birthday.  Seeing as how my Mom and I share the same birthday and he was married to her for 25 years, as well as me being his daughter for 33 years, it seems unlikely that he forgot.  He probably just wasn't into it because it wasn't about him.  WOW.  Sorry for this pity party.  I def have the Thursday night burn out!!
I need to go and try and purge all of this negativity I've got rolling around inside of me, it's not cool. 
Let's work on a list of Thankful's shall we?!

My little brother telling me he loves me most :) 
Even after a fight, the husband and I can still love each other, and tell each other so.
My sister, she is really funny, and totally great.
A memory foam mattress, it's a flippin dream!
Chocolate, dark and bitter, just like my mood today!

xoxo - Gallant

PHEW!

I have been a workout machine this week!  Here's is my schedule, just cause I feel like bragging a little bit ;)
Monday:  Bootcamp 1 hour
Tuesday:  Spinning 1 hour
Wednesday:  Bootcamp 1 hour
Thursday:  Spinning 1 hour
Friday: Off
Saturday:  Elliptical 1 hour
Sunday: Off
PHEW~  No wonder I'm so tired!  I did well with eating today, I did have a slight break down and had some french fries during lunch, not a lot though...anyway, I tracked them, and I'm still where I need to be with my points.  Yay!
I'm going to go stretch and meditate now before bed.  xoxo Ladies, reading your blogs is one of the things I look forward to most everyday :)

-Gallant

Short and Sweet-ish

I'm really tired, I probably shouldn't wait until it's so late to blog, but today was long and busy busy.
Nothing much to say, I tracked what I ate today, although I didn't do so great on my birthday weekend...No tracking, but mindful eating.  I ate ALOT of pizza on Sunday into Monday, BUT, I went to bootcamp yesterday and worked my arse off, then went to spinning tonight.  So far this week I've added 65 activity points to my tracker.  I am focused and dedicated to see a loss this week.   My trainer also took my measurements yesterday, so in a month, I'll have something to report about that.
So yeah, yesterday was my actual b-day, and I went to bootcamp and had my measurements taken...if that doesn't say "life change"  I don't know what does!!

Until tomorrow ladies...
xoxo Gallant

5 thankfuls

Amazing friends
Strength
Feeling Calm
Hot Baths
My Momma

BEST.WEEKEND.EVER.

I am So thankful today.  I had such a great weekend!!  Friday night, tapas and drinks with Alisa and Flavia.  Saturday lame ass weigh in, but went to the gym, THEN, went out for yummmmmmy sushi with hubby, besties and other lovely friends, then came back home to be surprised with a cake and more presents :)  THEN tonight after work, I went had delicious pizza with more Alisa and Flavia, plus their cute kids, PLUS more lovely friends, and Tony, my brotha from another Motha :)  I cannot tell you how happy I am to have so many amazing people in my life who care to party with me for my b-day.  It's just SO cool!
One of my gifts was a gift certificate to my favorite bootcamp, so hopefully I can continue it next month :)
And to all the ladies that suggested tracking measurements, I haven't yet, but my trainer is going to start it for me tomorrow, just during bootcamp, but at least it'll give me a gage...

Until tomorrow!

xoxoxoxo Gallant

WTF

So, I gained another .2 lbs this week.  WTF?  Again, not a perfect week, but I still tracked, still exercised 4 times, and never even went in to my activity points.   I cannot tell you how bummed out and upset I am over this.  I feel like such a failure today.  I sat in the WW meeting, fighting back tears, not even listening to the meeting, I was just absorbed with upset. 
The good news is that instead of walking out and going to stuff my face with bad food, I walked out and went to the gym.  I worked my ass off, I was like an anorexic in an after-school special...
I'm having a lot of anxiety for this weekend now...It's my birthday on Monday, and of course everything is revolving around food.  Last night I went for Tapas and drinks with Alisa and our dear friend Flavia.  It was such a great time, and I think that I made pretty decent choice considering we were at a restaurant.  It helps when all the plates were tiny and you're sharing everything.  Tonight I'm going for sushi with my bestie, and that should be an okay reasonable meal as well, tomorrow on the other hand, I'm going for pizza.  Yes, pizza, my love of all loves...So this is what I'll do.  I'll eat lots of fruit and veggies, some egg whites in the morning, so that I have plenty of points that I don't totally blow it.
I really need a loss next week, even if it's just the .4 that I've gained over the last two weeks.
I'm going to go soak my tired body in a hot bath, read, stretch, and then get ready for dinner tonight.
Till tomorrow...
xoxo Gallant

OH, and I AM THANKFUL TO HAVE LADIES LIKE YOU IN MY CORNER.   WITHOUT YOU, I WOULD HAVE SAID FUCK IT BY NOW. ;)