Today was better. Today I got out of doing a 6 month project that I really didn't want to be a part of at work. And best yet, my enemy got stuck with it instead :)~ Karma's a bitch!
Ohhh, work. I'm really not into it. I want to do something else, and I don't know what. I want to go to culinary school, but I don't want to butcher animals, and I'm pretty sure that's part of it. Then I think, pastry school, but then I feel like that is just too narrow...Then I think about opening my own place, but after about 5 minutes, the thought scares the shit out of me. I don't know. I just don't know!
As for food, I did good today, I even got Alisa and I some healthy, albeit, not so totally yummy snacks, but I still made a good choice for us. It helped that I don't eat meat, and she's not eating dairy, so that narrowed the options quite a bit! I loved spending time with her and baby Luca Joe, that little boy is a heart breaker!
So my goal for tomorrow, to really start to figure out what I truly want to do with myself. I need to spend more time reflecting on this so that I have a goal and some direction, because career wise, I feel like I'm just floating around.
So tomorrow, I will be going to yoga, weather permitting (yeah, it's going to snow...AGAIN) I will be making food for super bowl extravaganza, and I will spend some time trying figure out what to do with myself when I grow up.
5 THANKFUL things
My Jonesy, I know I'm a weirdo, but I really love him so much.
Having any job at all. My husband was laid off for 14 months, don't think I don't know how lucky I am to have a paycheck!
Luca Joe's smile, so flippin cute, it made my day!
For losing 10 lbs, that feels good to say.
My friends, all of them, I am so blessed.
xoxo Sisters!! -Gallant
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
-10 lbs. whooot whoooot!
So I FINALLY weighed in today, after 2 weeks of missing my meetings due to the fact that I live in the Fucking North Pole...anyway, I lost 2.6lbs, which got me to official weight loss since starting of 10lbs. Totally cool. I'm really hoping next week will be better, since I won't be all bloated and I'll have worked out a few times instead of sitting on my ass having the flu and eating pizza. MmmmMmmmm, pizza. It's my crack.
I had a really bad day today. I had to hide in a room today to calm down twice so I didn't go postal. Not so Zen of me, I know, but between working with crazy assholes and being menstrual, well, people should be afraid. I have a goal of being a more peaceful person, meditating more, realizing some people are awful and that I can work around it, because I am a better person. But sometimes Ghetto Gallant comes out, and I put my hair in a ponytail, take my earrings out, and I want to throw down. Instead of acting on that, I lock myself in a room until I can get it together, tap my third eye, awaken my peaceful spirit, and make an honest effort not to get arrested at work for physical violence.
So my goal for tomorrow is spend a little time meditating before I go to work. I really need to get myself to a good place before I enter that building again.
OH, and I get to see Alisa and Luca tomorrow too, and I'm so excited to smooch that little man and tell him how handsome he is :)
5 Thankful Things
1. Good Hair. My hair generally never lets me down.
2. Laughter. I love it.
3. My sister, I love our relationship, it's gotten really cool in the last few years.
4. People who say, Mmmmmmmmmm, after they've eaten something I've baked. It's my favorite.
5. Coffee. I'm from Seattle, and I will NEVER give it up. I love it too much.
I had a really bad day today. I had to hide in a room today to calm down twice so I didn't go postal. Not so Zen of me, I know, but between working with crazy assholes and being menstrual, well, people should be afraid. I have a goal of being a more peaceful person, meditating more, realizing some people are awful and that I can work around it, because I am a better person. But sometimes Ghetto Gallant comes out, and I put my hair in a ponytail, take my earrings out, and I want to throw down. Instead of acting on that, I lock myself in a room until I can get it together, tap my third eye, awaken my peaceful spirit, and make an honest effort not to get arrested at work for physical violence.
So my goal for tomorrow is spend a little time meditating before I go to work. I really need to get myself to a good place before I enter that building again.
OH, and I get to see Alisa and Luca tomorrow too, and I'm so excited to smooch that little man and tell him how handsome he is :)
5 Thankful Things
1. Good Hair. My hair generally never lets me down.
2. Laughter. I love it.
3. My sister, I love our relationship, it's gotten really cool in the last few years.
4. People who say, Mmmmmmmmmm, after they've eaten something I've baked. It's my favorite.
5. Coffee. I'm from Seattle, and I will NEVER give it up. I love it too much.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Shit is getting REAL
In the last two weeks, with the weather being shit, and not being able to do my weigh ins and meetings due to cancellations, and not being able to go to my classes because of my flu for the last week...well...I feel like crap.
I feel dangerously close to falling off the deep end. This is a perfect storm for me to give up, lose motivation, and fall into bad habits. This scares the hell out of me.
Today, I am thankful for this blog, to have a way to cry for help, or at least cry "uh oh, shit is getting real, and I'm scared I won't succeed."
I am thankful for all of you, so that I can be honest and not feel judged about this crazy up and down struggle, it is so comforting to know I'm not in this alone.
I ate within my points today, I did not go to the gym, as it's not safe to drive because of ice covering the streets.
Tomorrow, I really want to be active, because not being active, makes me feel anxious and depressed.
UGGGGGG!
Tomorrow, I pray for a more positive day.
5 Gratitudes
I am grateful for my FT sisters
I am grateful for self awareness
I am grateful for my doggie, who is SO happy to see me, everytime I walk into the room he throws a party for me :)
I am grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, including my best ladies kids, who are just as dear to me as the 'official' ones ;) (Luca, Mia, baby Blanchard on the way, you make Auntie April's heart MELT)
I am grateful for forgiveness. To myself, and to others, Everyone deserves it in my book.
LOVES and Goodnights to you all. xoxo - Gallant
I feel dangerously close to falling off the deep end. This is a perfect storm for me to give up, lose motivation, and fall into bad habits. This scares the hell out of me.
Today, I am thankful for this blog, to have a way to cry for help, or at least cry "uh oh, shit is getting real, and I'm scared I won't succeed."
I am thankful for all of you, so that I can be honest and not feel judged about this crazy up and down struggle, it is so comforting to know I'm not in this alone.
I ate within my points today, I did not go to the gym, as it's not safe to drive because of ice covering the streets.
Tomorrow, I really want to be active, because not being active, makes me feel anxious and depressed.
UGGGGGG!
Tomorrow, I pray for a more positive day.
5 Gratitudes
I am grateful for my FT sisters
I am grateful for self awareness
I am grateful for my doggie, who is SO happy to see me, everytime I walk into the room he throws a party for me :)
I am grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, including my best ladies kids, who are just as dear to me as the 'official' ones ;) (Luca, Mia, baby Blanchard on the way, you make Auntie April's heart MELT)
I am grateful for forgiveness. To myself, and to others, Everyone deserves it in my book.
LOVES and Goodnights to you all. xoxo - Gallant
Monday, January 31, 2011
A roof rake? REALLY?
This is what I used this evening to get the 2 feet of snow off of my garage, and the back end of my house...I live on a hill, so the roof is REALLLLY high, we had extension poles, all sorts of butch things. Then we had to rig another contraption to loosen the snow that has frozen, so that we could then rake this off. This is all because of the 4 feet of snow we've gotten in the last month, and the horror stories I keep seeing on the news of peoples roofs collapsing under all the weight...OH, did I mention we're getting 10" more tomorrow? And then a wicked awesome ice storm the next day. Hence the manic roof raking that was done tonight by myself and my husband.
All of this left no time for the gym. So I raked my roof, chipped ice, made dinner, and paid our monthly bills. Now I'm wishing I had a bottle of wine to wash it all down. That would be amazing.
So tomorrow, I will go to the gym, weather permitting. This winter is not conducive to my exercise plan, btw!! I'll also make good choices with what I eat, and track every single stupid point. Yep, Monday bitterness, in full effect over here!!!
Have a great Tuesday lovely ladies, I know I'm crossing my fingers :)
xoxo - Gallant
5 thankful things...
A roof over my head during this bitter mean winter
Enough money to pay my monthly bills (THIS IS HUGE, BTW!!)
My Uncle Bert, he's so awesome. I love him so much!
A car that is relatively new, that will get me where I need to be.
HEAT. I love having heat, and I'm OH so thankful for it.
All of this left no time for the gym. So I raked my roof, chipped ice, made dinner, and paid our monthly bills. Now I'm wishing I had a bottle of wine to wash it all down. That would be amazing.
So tomorrow, I will go to the gym, weather permitting. This winter is not conducive to my exercise plan, btw!! I'll also make good choices with what I eat, and track every single stupid point. Yep, Monday bitterness, in full effect over here!!!
Have a great Tuesday lovely ladies, I know I'm crossing my fingers :)
xoxo - Gallant
5 thankful things...
A roof over my head during this bitter mean winter
Enough money to pay my monthly bills (THIS IS HUGE, BTW!!)
My Uncle Bert, he's so awesome. I love him so much!
A car that is relatively new, that will get me where I need to be.
HEAT. I love having heat, and I'm OH so thankful for it.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
The HULK
So today I went to work. Mind you, aside from the Dr on Friday I have not left my house since Wednesday...
The parking lot at my Sunday job has not been plowed once in the last 4 feet of snow it's accumulated. It's F'n crazy, and I'm a New Englander that does not drive some crazy giant 4 wheel drive beast, I drive a Scion. A Scion that got stuck in the snow; in the middle of the lot. I had to go into my place of business, get a shovel, and shovel my car out so that I could park it. Did I mention that I am just now trying to recover from the flu? While shoveling I had visions of myself, turning into the Hulk, picking up all of the cars in the parking lot, hurling them down the street in a fit of rage, screaming "THIS SNOW, THIS FU#KING SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep Breath, centering spirit. I got my car unstuck, parked it, and did my job of making cookies and sandwiches for people enjoying the day off.
I am going to attempt the gym tomorrow. Just to walk, I won't go crazy as I'm still recovering. I don't have a fever anymore, but I'm certainly not feeling great yet. I just need to get moving again. I feel like a blob. I feel fat and bloated. Is this really what not working out for a week and eating too many carbs does to me? Yes, yes it does.
So I'm excited to get back into the swing of things, getting better, and staying healthy.
Thank you all for blogging, for giving me something funny and inspiring to read, and honestly, something to look forward too :)
Loves to all you lovely ladies!!
OH, and 5 things I am thankful for:
My husband. He offered to come dig my car out and deal with all of it this morning when I called him in a fit of rage. He's a smart and kind man. He heard the HULK in my voice.
My dog, he makes me happy every time I look at him.
My house, it's small, but I really love my home.
My bathtub, it's claw foot, deep, and oh sooo dreamy!
My Job, even though sometimes it's lame, I work with people who honestly make me laugh. I LOVE to LAUGH.
The parking lot at my Sunday job has not been plowed once in the last 4 feet of snow it's accumulated. It's F'n crazy, and I'm a New Englander that does not drive some crazy giant 4 wheel drive beast, I drive a Scion. A Scion that got stuck in the snow; in the middle of the lot. I had to go into my place of business, get a shovel, and shovel my car out so that I could park it. Did I mention that I am just now trying to recover from the flu? While shoveling I had visions of myself, turning into the Hulk, picking up all of the cars in the parking lot, hurling them down the street in a fit of rage, screaming "THIS SNOW, THIS FU#KING SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep Breath, centering spirit. I got my car unstuck, parked it, and did my job of making cookies and sandwiches for people enjoying the day off.
I am going to attempt the gym tomorrow. Just to walk, I won't go crazy as I'm still recovering. I don't have a fever anymore, but I'm certainly not feeling great yet. I just need to get moving again. I feel like a blob. I feel fat and bloated. Is this really what not working out for a week and eating too many carbs does to me? Yes, yes it does.
So I'm excited to get back into the swing of things, getting better, and staying healthy.
Thank you all for blogging, for giving me something funny and inspiring to read, and honestly, something to look forward too :)
Loves to all you lovely ladies!!
OH, and 5 things I am thankful for:
My husband. He offered to come dig my car out and deal with all of it this morning when I called him in a fit of rage. He's a smart and kind man. He heard the HULK in my voice.
My dog, he makes me happy every time I look at him.
My house, it's small, but I really love my home.
My bathtub, it's claw foot, deep, and oh sooo dreamy!
My Job, even though sometimes it's lame, I work with people who honestly make me laugh. I LOVE to LAUGH.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Flu Feeding Frenzy
Hey Ladies,
I'm still Typhoid Mary, I finally went to the doctor today and was diagnosed with the flu. So exciting, because there is nothing that can be done with the flu. I never get an illness that can be cured with medicine, I am the queen of viruses.
So, one thing I've been paying attention to while wallowing in illness and misery (I am a total dramatic baby when I'm sick btw) is that all I want to do is EAT. Why can't I be the person who comes back from an illness and be down 5lbs?! Because I am a fat girl, who eats out of boredom and feeling sad. I know that I feed myself to make myself feel better...This is not the recommended thing to do for the flu. Mind you, I don't have an appetite per say, just wanna eat. I'm trying to be reasonable, and I am consciously eating, so that is a plus at least. I am also tracking all of it, no matter how ugly it gets.
The worst part is that I can't work out, I get dizzy standing up for lords sake, but exercise really is my anti-depressant/anti-anxiety. I did manage to stretch last night, and I'm going to give a whirl again tonight.
On the bright side, I've been researching culinary schools to go to, this is my dream when my financial life is a bit more stable....
That's it for me today, I've missed blogging with you ladies. I hope I feel up to again tomorrow. I have been reading all of yours, and it's SO great to have all of your company :)
Loves to you all!!!
xoxo Gallant
I'm still Typhoid Mary, I finally went to the doctor today and was diagnosed with the flu. So exciting, because there is nothing that can be done with the flu. I never get an illness that can be cured with medicine, I am the queen of viruses.
So, one thing I've been paying attention to while wallowing in illness and misery (I am a total dramatic baby when I'm sick btw) is that all I want to do is EAT. Why can't I be the person who comes back from an illness and be down 5lbs?! Because I am a fat girl, who eats out of boredom and feeling sad. I know that I feed myself to make myself feel better...This is not the recommended thing to do for the flu. Mind you, I don't have an appetite per say, just wanna eat. I'm trying to be reasonable, and I am consciously eating, so that is a plus at least. I am also tracking all of it, no matter how ugly it gets.
The worst part is that I can't work out, I get dizzy standing up for lords sake, but exercise really is my anti-depressant/anti-anxiety. I did manage to stretch last night, and I'm going to give a whirl again tonight.
On the bright side, I've been researching culinary schools to go to, this is my dream when my financial life is a bit more stable....
That's it for me today, I've missed blogging with you ladies. I hope I feel up to again tomorrow. I have been reading all of yours, and it's SO great to have all of your company :)
Loves to you all!!!
xoxo Gallant
Monday, January 24, 2011
Meditative Meaning
I know we've all joked about being nicer people as one of our resolutions, and, well, you can add me to the list. Tonight, I did't work out, because I forgot it's Monday and this is my cleaning/prepare for the rest of the week night. Which I did! My house isn't spotless, but I wouldn't be horrified if someone stopped by un-annouced, and I made a ton of Veggie Tofu Fried Rice for dinner, which will also be lunch for the rest of the week. Awesome, and so very yummy!
In addition to being a domestic goddess tonight, I also meditated for awhile. My intention during meditation, visualizing love, compassion, openess, and honesty for some people I work with that are really causing me upset. This may sound stupid to some, but I do believe that people who are difficult, mean, or unlikeable are that way because they don't recieve enough love in their lives. So I try and send them some during meditation. It's difficult, but it works, and it makes me feel better too. I'm not going to let them bring me down man! This is not something I have been able to master being open to on a daily basis, but when the mood strikes, I take advantage.
Tomorrow, I will have a better day. I will be happy at work, I will eat sensibly, I will be mindful of how I talk to people.
I know you all will have a great day tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
In addition to being a domestic goddess tonight, I also meditated for awhile. My intention during meditation, visualizing love, compassion, openess, and honesty for some people I work with that are really causing me upset. This may sound stupid to some, but I do believe that people who are difficult, mean, or unlikeable are that way because they don't recieve enough love in their lives. So I try and send them some during meditation. It's difficult, but it works, and it makes me feel better too. I'm not going to let them bring me down man! This is not something I have been able to master being open to on a daily basis, but when the mood strikes, I take advantage.
Tomorrow, I will have a better day. I will be happy at work, I will eat sensibly, I will be mindful of how I talk to people.
I know you all will have a great day tomorrow!!
xoxo Gallant
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