Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Blessed

Tonight I am feeling blessed.  I feel so lucky to have a job (even though I don't like it) to pay my bills, to have a strong body that I can see new muscles coming out, to have the support of everyone I love, to have the best dog in the whole world. 
I am still struggling with eating.  Easter has turned into a 3 day event so far for me.  I'm really hoping that I can get back to being mindful and healthy tomorrow.  The good news is that I still haven't gained any weight.  the bad news is that I still haven't lost any weight.  I'm still at the grand total of 12 lbs.  I really need to lose at least 60.  I've got my fitness down, I just need to re group and be consistent with my WW.  It's very hit and miss for me.  Consistency is the key.

Tomorrow I will make smarter choices and will not go into maximum carb overload.

xoxo Gallant

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Get It Girl

Sooooo, I gained 1 pound.  YEP.  In the last 5 weeks of not weighing in, not really tracking, and stressing the F out, I ONLY gained a pound :)
I know, it seems weird to be okay/happy with that, but honestly, I had horrible visions of somehow gaining everything back and I didn't!!!  This gives me hope that they're are some major changes happening in my behavior, that my less that perfect falling off the wagon, really ain't so bad.  Last year, I would've gained it all back, in fact I've done it more times than I'd like to admit.
So today, is a new day, a day that will lead the way to better days to come, more weight loss to be had, and my goals being met.  I'm really happy today! 
I went for a 2.5 mile walk with my Jonesy, my favorite walking partner.  He likes to hustle.  I think it's the songs I make up about us and sing out loud to him while we're walking that really gets him moving ;)
I tracked everything today, had A LOT of points at lunch, but it's all good, because I'm tracking them, and I'm totally going to lose 2 lbs this week.  Get It Girl!
Well back to baking for me, so many cupcakes, so little time...literally.

Tomorrow I will walk again, track everything, and bake my ass off!
Have a great night my lovely ladies!  I love you all to bits!!!!
xoxo Gallant

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I miss you

I just accidentally erased my post.  SON OF A BITCH.
A brief synopsis:

I miss you, my FT ladies.  I miss giving myself the time I deserve to be thin and happy.  I miss bootcamp (it has been off for two weeks, my instructors are on vacation.)
I am tired and busy.  I am thankful for being busy with cake orders, lots and lots of cake orders, but on my only day off I haven been making at least 5-6 dozen cupcakes, and delivering them, and have turned to pizza and chips because I am tired.  Not good.

TOMORROW
I will weigh in, and face the music. I have not weighed in for over a month.  Be prepared for tears tomorrow
I will go to spinning and not be convinced that an hour away from cake making is going to ruin my schedule...who needs sleep anyway?
I will think only positive thoughts
I will blog about my results
I will track everything I eat, resurrecting my goal of being thin and fit. 

Thank you ladies, for still reading this, still being on my team, and being the best support a girl could ask for.

xoxo Gallant

Monday, April 4, 2011

RE COMMITTING

Hey Ya'll!

Here I am, typing away in my hotel room in Dirty Jersey.  Right across the highway from the beautiful Newark Airport.  YES, I travel in style to the most exciting places! 
I'm at a two day training at our Elizabeth NJ store, so far so good.  I've even made good choices with my food so far!  Last night I got in late and was starving, I ordered a salad with sliced apples and walnuts from the bistro in the lobby.  It was pretty lame, but I was happy I made the best choice possible.  I also brough a lot of snacks with me, granola bars, almonds, crackers...AND had fruit instead of a bagel for breakfast...first time ever!!  Dinner might be a bit of a challenge today, by the looks of it, Ruby Tuesday's is going to be the destination, yuck!!
The next two weeks are going to be a bit challenging for me.  My bootcamp is on hiatius for 2 weeks,, which means I'm on my own.  I've got to come up with a game plan on what to do with my fitness for the next few Monday's and Wednesday's.  I can't get caught in a slump!  On the bright side I can return to the Wednesday night WW meetings that I like the best.  However, I need to check out the Friday one and see if it's something I'd be into.  So far I hate the Saturday one, it's flippin lame!  I haven't been to a weigh in in 3 weeks.  THIS IS NOT OKAY.  I could bore everyone with the reasons why, but really, there is NO excuse.  I need to get back on the program 100%, no excuses.  I am recommiting to the meetings and weigh ins starting on Wednesday.  The good news is that all though i haven't been the best WW member of late, I have always kept mindful, not being perfect, but not falling off the deep end and eating an entire cake or pizza.  I haven't said "Fuck It" yet. 
After my first 4 weeks of bootcamp though, I got my mesurments done, and I lost 1 inch in my waist, 1 in my hips, and .5 in my arms...so I'm still playing the "slow and steady wins the race" role!  I am going to step it up though, because I want to have lost an additional 40lbs by the end of August.  This will be a challenge, but I am committed and ready to so this.  I will be one hot bitch!  The grand total will be 52 lbs, about 70% or so to my year end goal. 

I CAN MAKE THIS HAPPEN. 
I WILL MAKE THIS HAPPEN. 
IT IS HAPPENING!!!!

My reflections on the last few months; I have found who I am, what I want, and what I really need to do to achieve it.  I have a clear goal, and it is something that I have complete control over.  My mind has control over my eating, not my emotions.

I might not blog tomorrow, depending on what time I get home.  But please know, that if I am not around for a day or two, I am always cheering for you, always keeping up with you, and carrying all of your amazing strength and support with me.  I love you all!!
xoxo - Gallant